Today.. I met back the greatest love of my past. The feeling was surprisingly unique. I didn't expect that happiness would flow throughout my body even though she did something inevitable. She still gives me those butterflies. It was weird, but it felt happy and appropriate. I was not in the right moment to see her, but i guess God set it timely and perfectly. It's like a feeling of giving birth to a child, seeing the mother smile for the first time. It's like a feeling of relief after a period of exacerbation.
She was still the same. Plain old chinky, cute, vulnerable girl. She just became more beautiful. She still smiles the way she used back then. Her eyes, her cheeks and mostly her adorable laugh. I can't explain what i really felt, but it was indeed a feeling of amazement. Like in shock, but in a good way. You know that feeling? When you meet that someone whom once mean the world to you? Like for decades.. You're going to meet them abruptly and unexpectedly.
It's like chest pains and asthma when you have difficulties in breathing but in a better feeling.
All things would depend on you.. Even if everyone turns their back on you. Even if they tell you what you should do nor what you need. At the end of the day.. You yourself is responsible for your own grandiosity.
Maybe God puts us in that situation, where you would meet a person from your past.. Not for closures nor for comebacks, but rather a reason nobody would know.. But in a better manner.
