Wallflower (Poem)

Wallflower

Quiet and shy,

Loud and outgoing.

Two different sides,

Which do you want to see?

Who do you see?

Like black and white,

True and false,

Yes and no,

They are there.

They are both.

Listen and you will hear

Their mind's loudest laughs

And its quietest tears.

Their crazy thoughts

And their deepest regrets.

Listen and watch who they are.

A story.

Their life is that book that continues

With twists and turns and stops suddenly

Before starting up again.

A new book in the series.

Have you ever wondered?

Ever wondered why they are quite?

Why they listen before speaking?

Why their thoughts are never voiced?

Why they keep it to themselves?

Read the book and see.

See them.

Both sides.

The yes and the no.

The true and the false.

The black and the white.

See them before thinking,

"They're...who again?"

Try to see them like Sherlock.

Examine their words and actions.

Maybe they are just quiet.

Or maybe you just don't want to know

What's inside their head.

The jumble of thoughts,

Emotions, feelings,

Words,

And pictures might overwhelm you.

Listen.

Do you hear that?

The quite voice saying,

"You don't know me yet.

We could be friends.

Wanna give it a try

And meet the wallflower?"

~•~ Just a small poem I wrote for school. I felt like that in middle school, still do actually, but now it's not as bad. I still feel it though, ya know? I feel like no one actually knows me. Or that they don't look past the first impression. I'm a wallflower most times. I don't like too much attention on me, but I like being noticed and not being pushed back.

Have you ever felt that? Like you were invisible? Like no one actually cared? Because I have. I feel it a lot. Being a middle child is hard. I never feel like I fit in into my family, my group of friends, anything really. I feel like the third wheel.

I try not to though. I keep my head held high. I think positively. I smile. I do what I love: writing, reading, listening to music.

I think.

I think about everything. I think about my words, actions, friends, family, life.

I make scenarios before bed and think "What is the meaning of life?" before actually sleeping.

But I'm a teen. I'm crazy. I'm weird. I have crazy friends who I wouldn't be able to live without. I am a part of fandoms that are incredible in every way.

But most importantly, I am me. I am whatever I want to be. Who ever I want to be. I am proud to be myself. I am proud to say I am who I am. I am Carolina. Wallflower, quiet, crazy, smart, bookworm, writer, singer, fandom addict. Whatever you think I am, I probably am. But, hey. What do I care. I don't have to live up to anyone's expectations but my own.

And so should you.

If you ever want to talk, or just need someone who will listen, then you can inbox me. No one should feel alone, upset, depressed, angry, or just plain useless. Because you aren't. You are beautiful and perfect and you deserve to be you. To not be afraid. To be honest and bold and strong.

You don't have to do it by yourself. You can count on me if you need to. Because I'll listen. I'll talk. I'll take your mind off of things. I can help, but you need to want it too.

You are loved, just remember that. Forever and always because you deserve it.

~Carolina