It changes you.. literally..
you sort of become this whole new person, with a new personality, new characteristics, you slowly become this person you never wanted too.Its not as if you can stop this, i mean its depression.. your not the one controlling it are you? no youre not.. but unfortunately people cant see this. People who have never suffered this will never truly understand what goes on inside your mind, they don't and WONT understand these thoughts that race through your mind every single minute.. every second, hour.. Unless you've been through this stage of life personally you will never get it from another persons perspective, its not as easy as it seems.. you can tell yourself constantly, over and over everyday you understand what this person is going through but trust me on this one, you really fucking dont.
Honestly? you wanna know something? some people tell me.. "oh i so wish i was like you! you have such an amazing life!! how could you possibly hate it?" i sit back and think to myself ' trust me.. if you knew what went on truthfully in my life you'd hate it..' ill be honest with you.. my life isnt exactly what you would call perfect and yes i do hate it.. but if you were to take one step in my shoes.. you'd fall straight away. There's no way.. no way in this entire world, anyone could possibly wish to live a life like this.. honestly? it sucks!
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battle scars
Non-FictionYou know what really kills a person..? Having bullied them so much that they took an Ice cold blade to their skin. Putting them through so much hate they loose all self belief.. Putting them at a war with themselves can cost them their own lives.. ...
