sorry, i'm not sorry || hyungwon monsta x fanfic ||

21.

hyungwon stood against the window sill and watched nari.

she was currently only dressed in a hotel robe and her under garments. her legs pulled up to her chest. her forehead against her knees as she continued to softly cry. he hated how helpless he was, knowing he tried his best to be there for her. helping her take off her makeup and shoes. he had just helped her shower, standing to the side softly washing her hair, gently washing her body, doing his best to help her in anyway he could.

before any of that he brought her up to the room let her cry as he held her on the bed. he kept thinking how stunning she looked in the dress and now his memory was slightly tainted by her sobbing in his arms in that dress.

he walked over after a few seconds, "hey love let me brush out your hair," he whispers sitting behind her holding the hair brush in his hand. she doesn't respond, just nodding her head. he gently removed the towel and gently began to brush out the knots in her damp hair, carefully.

honestly he wasn't sure what he was doing. he had never showered another person before. he never brushed out long hair before and he didn't even really know how to do it. he had never showed this much care towards anyone. it was different because it was nari.

"i'm sorry." she mutters after a while.

hyungwon stops brushing out her hair, "why are you apologizing nari?" he says gently rubbing her back. "never apologize to me, especially when nothing was your fault." he stated before he goes back to brushing her hair.

she look back at him, her eyes puffy from crying. she had small red dots under her eyes, due to the excessiveness of her sobbing. "i shouldn't have did that."

"did what love?" he whispers comfortingly to her. "you didn't do anything."

nari eyes got glossy again as the guilt ate her up. "hyungwon," she tries to make out. knowing very well she was a mess, she felt bad he had to sit here and care for her.

hyungwon shook his head and reaches out to take her face in his hands, "no, don't cry please. seeing you cry physically hurts me. please don't apologize. i told you i love you and i meant it. i'll be here by your side no matter what, okay?" he uses his thumbs to catch her stray tears.

she looks up at him and nods, "okay." she whispers back to him.

there was a slight knock on the door, he looks to the door and back to nari. "it's kihyun he grabbed your bag and my camera supplies." he whispers to her. he gets up and answers the door. "hey."

"hey," kihyun says. "i grabbed whatever i could from the table and put it in the bag before they came back in." he hands it to his friend. he had waited a while to come back to the hotel, concerned that they'd follow him. "oh and i picked up some food for you two."

"thanks," he says collecting his things and the bag. "i appreciate it."

"how is she doing?" he whispers.

hyungwon sighs using the door stopper to keep the door open and walks into the hall. not wanting nari to over hear, "i think it was a panic or anxiety attack," he whispers. "she's been crying since we got up here. i think it became too much and it was her biggest fear, ruining narae's big day."

"i doubt narae's upset with her. if anything she's upset about the situation. we all know nari and she'd never do this purposefully." he sigh. "well if you need anything ok, i can help," he says. "i'll get going, call if you need anything seriously hyungwon."

"i will," he says. "thanks kihyun."

"of course. see you later."

hyungwon walks into the room and sees nari sitting up on the bed. "kihyun brought food." he says holding up a plastic bag.