Drunk and Wasted. That's how I want it. Getting drunk and wasted every night is existing for me. This is the only way for me to feel alive - feeling something that I will never feel when I'm sober.
I pushed him a little bit, which made him stop. As I looked around his car, I noticed that it was heavily tinted. I didn't notice this earlier because I was too caught up with us—kissing. He sighed, drawing my attention. Staring at me, he waited for an answer, his pair of brown chinky eyes fixed on mine. Those eyes were the reason I got lost and agreed to make out with him.
He broke the silence, his voice still low and alluring. "What are you thinking?"
"Nothing" it was a long silence for the both of us... again.
"Your name?" he asked while heavily breathing around my neck, kissing it softly. I was lost for a moment that we didn't even talk.
"Landaverde." I answered without tearing my eyes off him. I can't help it. I am feeling things that I shouldn't feel already...
He chuckled. I thought we would continue what we were doing but to my surprise he just stared at me smiling while tucking my hair beside my ear.
"Your last name?" There's a ghost smile etched on his face.
"Yeah"
"It would be weird if we were doing the deed, and I was moaning your last name" The ridiculous yet manly smile he was hiding a while ago is now visible on his face.
He stared. That kind of stare can make me go down on knees.
"So, Ms. Landaverde... are you still down with me?" he smiled, the one where his eyes are disappearing.
"Huh?" I was in awe looking at him. Is this love?
"Looks like you're not up for doing it with me anymore, huh?" He's hiding a mischievous smile on his face. I can see it, but I can't answer him because there's a force on me that wants to stare at him for the time being.
I took a deep breath, feeling the weight of the moment. "I don't know," I admitted, meeting his intense gaze.
"Let's go somewhere, then," he said.
"Where? Aren't we going to have sex? Sa hotel ba?" He looked at me as if I were asking a ridiculous question.
He chuckled, his eyes filled with amusement. "Nah, we're not. Let's do something different tonight. Are you down?"
"Yeah, sure." Damn it! I did not even hesitate...
"Do you wanna see the city lights? I can take you to Tops."
"Yeah, but Tops is... also, I've never been there since Transcentral Highway is kinda far," I said. He didn't answer. Instead, he started the car's engine.
"I can still drive to Transcentral. I'm not drunk... If you're worried 'cause it's kinda far," he said. So, I just nodded. Seconds passed, but he was just there staring at me. I turned to look at him.
"Akala ko ba aalis tayo?" I asked. Clueless. May kinuha siya sa wallet niya at binigay sakin ang ids.
I snapped pics of each ID he gave me, handed them back, and he started the car's engine..
"Can I play some music?" I got bored because of the silence and his driving I don't want to disturb him.
He just nodded, handing me his phone.
"Can you pick 'Black Butterflies and Déjà Vu' by The Maine as the first song?" Nice taste, huh.
I open his phone, wala naman passcode. His wallpaper is just a pure black background lang. I search for the song that he's requesting, and it starts playing. This is kinda awkward. After the song's done playing, I'll ask him some things, later. Napalingon ako ng magsimula siyang sumabay sa tugtog. Sakto naman na nag-stop ang traffic lights
You flash like a setting sun
You come around, I come undone
Can't find the sound under my tongue
When I look at you
I lose my voice when I look at you
Can't make a noise though I'm trying to
He continued singing that part while looking at me. I felt something but nevermind. Maganda ang boses niya. I wonder if he's a singer or something.
"Saan ka nag-aaral?" sakto naman na pinaandar niya na ulit ang sasakyan.
"Same school as yours," he said without looking at me. Ang mga mata ay nakatutok sa daan. Hindi ko alam that we're schoolmates? Damn, I should have looked around in school. Bakit di ko napansin na may ganito ka-gwapo doon?
"Really? So, do you know me?" he bit his lips bago dahan-dahang tumango.
"Since when?" dagdag ko. I don't think na kilala niya ako. Why does he need to ask my name in the first place then?
"I don't think you know me. You asked for my name awhile ago," nakatitig pa din ako sa kanya. He is suppressing his smile.
"I'm just trying to confirm something... if it was you that I am kissing with.
