The Therapy of Mistakes

Prologue: [WARNING: SPG]

I dressed myself to go to the bar, to party.

I like pleasuring myself, I masturbate, but I don't like to do it with a guy. Marami nang gustong ikama ako pero tintanggihan ko. Come on, I can pleasure myself alone. Pleasuring yourself is totally normal.

Pagdating ko sa bar ang daming taong nagpaparty. Well, what do we expect?

Some people criticized those who worked in a place like this or those people who party in a place like this, they didn't know that this is sometimes a therapy of stress, depression, problems in family, etc.

So many, judgemental people on earth without noticing their own mistakes too. We all did mistakes but it's not mean you're a bad person. We just need to be educated and learn how to avoid judging.

"Isang Mojito." Sabi ko sa bartender.

Habang hinihintay ang order kong drink ay tumitingin ako sa mga taong sumasayaw. This is my daily life, I love spending it here, so relaxing and I'm just enjoying the moment, stress-free.

May lalaking pumunta sa bar counter at nag-order ng isang drink, same as what I ordered. I stared at him as he waited for his drink. Ngumuso ako habang nakatagilid ang ulo at nakatukod ang dalawang siko sa bar top. He's so damn fine and attractive, wearing a black long sleeve polo folded on his forearm, nadedepina ng kanyang suot ang braso niyang malalaki, ang kanyang katawan na halatang naglalaman ng six pack abs, his aquiline shaped nose, his kissable lips----

Umiling ako at umiwas ng tingin sa lalaki. What the hell?! Why am I describing him?!

"Miss, here is your drink," sabi nong bartender na gumawa ng drink ko.

"Thank you," ininom ko iyon habang sinusulyapan ko ang lalaking naghihintay pa rin sa inorder niya. I saw him looking at me, I immediately turned my sight away from him. God!

"Hi," muntik na akong mahulog sa kinauupuan ko nang bigla siyang lumapit sa akin. Goodness!

Shit, h-he looks so handsome! Okay, di naman siguro masamang pumuri?

"I... Caught you staring at me. Do you have something to say?" Tumagilid ang ulo niya habang tinitingnan ako. He looks at me from head to toe. I don't know why I feel embarrassed!

"Nothing," kibit balikat kong sagot. Ayokong aminin na na-a-attract ako sa kanya noh?! No way!

He's half smirking while intently looking at me. I can't clearly see the color of his eye, I swear to God he has that foreign look. Tinawag na siya nong bartender nang matapos na ang inorder niya.

"Oh! We have the same drink, is it your favourite?" Tanong niya.

Why is he talking to me like he know me?! Oh, this is bar anyway, everyone is free to talk to strangers. Baliw din ako eh, sinasagot sariling tanong.

"Yeah," tanging sagot ko.

Matapos kong mainom ang inorder kong drink kanina, nag-order pa ako ng iba. Hanggang sa medyo lasing na ako at humahalo na sa sumasayaw sa dance floor. Nasa katinuan pa naman ako, hindi ako nalalasing nang malala.

I am swaying my hips. The song is bop and hype the people on the dance floor! Bahagya pa akong natumba nong tinodo ko na ang galaw ko.

"I'm sorry," sabi ko do'n sa naapakan ko.

I dance again while lifting my hands up on the air. 

"Wooooo!" Tumalon-talon na ako at medyo nahihilo na. I drink too much this night, huh? Ang init na ng katawan ko.

May humawak sa bewang ko kaya agad kong tiningnan kung sino. He's staring at me seriously.

"It's me, the one who talk to you in the bar counter. You're...dancing so wild.
I heard a guys out there talking about you. They...planned something bad against you kaya nilapitan na kita." Aniya.