First and foremost
Oh, let it be said, my dear
I was gonna wait for you
So this is not an act of spite
It's a visceral coming-to
He wasnt going to kill her, it was in a blind rage. Visceral means deep, often hidden feelings. He didnt kill her in spite. He killed her with a deep hatred that he might not have even realized he was capable of.
She wrote an album
And that's something that I can't do
But what I can do is spit the truth
And it all leads back to you
She probably was a singer, or wanted to be. He was jealous. He is now sharing the truth with the world. In his mind it is all her fault.
Secondly, I know I haven't written much
You know the way I can be
Tonight, I'm fucking drunk
So it's all gonna be about me
He is writing it like a letter 'I know I havent written much,' A lot of people cope by writing letters to loved ones they have lost or miss. And he is drinking away the guilt, turning it away from himself. Its not his fault, she shouldnt have lied.
Take a seat, pull up a chair
Give me one beat to fill my glass
I've lost a piece of me in you
But you've lost all your past
He lost a piece of him, the girl he loved, his innocence. But she lost EVERYTHING. She lost her life, her future, and her past.
Is he better than me?
Has he seen more to this life?
Can he smoke more?
Can he fuck more?
She probably told him "It was a joke, I actually like Jared(WE WILL GET TO IT)" or something, he is asking her why he is so much better than him. This is him remembering exactly what happened. What words were spoken, etc.
Are you good enough to be his wife?
Can he break me?
Can he break you?
Oh, I don't know what I'm to do
Yes, I don't know what I'll fuckin' do
If you listen to this he sounds progressively more and more angry through these two verses. He doesn't know what to do. He doesn't know what he is doing when he shoves her into the river.
I've seen our café, I've clocked our plans
Oh, what could have been
If you didn't go and fall in love
And ruin everything
As we previously mentioned he was obsessive over her. Always thinking about her. He had planned their future together, but she ruined it.
I've seen him
I've been him
I've felt the same way
But now I break against the dirt
Along with our cafés
He realized that he knew she didnt love him. He had gotten his hopes up over something he knew wasnt true. After he killed her he fell to the ground and broke down, just like the future they had built together.
Is he better than me?
Has he seen more to this life?
Can he smoke more?
Can he fuck more?
Are you good enough to be his wife?
Can he break me?
Can he break you?
Well, I don't know what I'm to do
Yes, I don't know what I'll fuckin' do
We already went over this.
I've lost all meaning
I've lost my sense of hope
I've seen him going out with you
I've seen what he can do
He lost everything when she said that it was a joke.
So touch him
And break me
Strip naked
Embrace him
Lose faith in
His pace, his
Stamina and grace
Here he is replacing everything that he planned for them with her and the other guy.
I'm losing face
I'm losing face
I'm losing
You know how sometimes your composure is referred to as your facade, mask, or face? He lost his composure, this is when he shoves her.
I don't care, I want you here, as long as your happy, I don't care
This is either as he is trying to save her or after she is already gone. He is regretting it. He is realizing that he cared more about her than himself. He doesn't need to be happy as long as she is. He is regretting it.
