Sometimes in life you get this feeling in your chest like you can't breathe. Your just there begging for life but it's already gone. A burning in your throat from all the times you've messed up your body. A empty feeling that never goes away. It's all because you were left alone with your thoughts . Your drifting away deeper and deeper into your darkest thoughts . The thought of someone you loved loving someone else the same way you loved them. The heart break that you knew would come but you didn't care because you thought it'd be different this time. You tell yourself over and over again that you'll never be the one . You'll never be first choice . You'll never be loved . You'll never know the feeling of their hand in yours, you'll never know what it feels like to have the person you love most lay beside you. The hurt you feel when you've been left without a goodbye or a good Reason. You keep pushing your feelings to the side to make others not worry. You keep pushing yourself to be the perfect friend , the perfect child , the perfect employee. Was it all for nothing ? Or are you overthinking again? Who knows anymore. All you know is everyday you put up a front to make them all believe your okay when your dying inside. The real you is screaming on the inside to be seen only to be locked away. Is this the life you pictured ? Is this all that's here? Hurt? Because that's all I've ever known
