its been 3 years and i've answered my question. i cared. i always did and i still do. but i was too late. too young. too scared to act on what i felt. you had all you could ever want and i couldn't imagine you still wanting me. i cared so much i sat there and said nothing. i let you treat me however you liked. and i let you speak to me only on your terms. you had so much power over me and so much say on how i felt. i dont think you realized your effect. or maybe you did and it was just payback. i would understand but still. it was elementary school. i still have questions for you but i've realized they will never be answered and i can move on despite that. you will always have a place in my heart and until i find someone new i would drop anything for you. maybe we were meant to be. maybe our souls are tied. or maybe we were just meant to help each other grow. only the universe knows. and that's ok. if what we wanted is meant to be we will find our way back. in the mean time i'm going to enjoy myself. im going to stop caring about how i look to you and the rest of the world. i'm going to start appreciate life for what it is and not for what it could be. so i wish you the best and i understand. but just so you know i cared and i always will. but you can do as you please and it will no longer affect me. i've grown and realized my worth and i hope you have too.
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