Sinful (GxG)

XLV: Emotional Stress (Amelia's POV)

I stood outside on Rosaline's lawn. I can't get over what just happened. Serena just... destroyed me. I sat on the grass motionless, staring at the grass between my legs. Tears ran down my face involuntarily. I just can't help it. What Serena said just kept repeating in my head.

No! You listen Amelia. I've moved on past the relationship we had. You should too. Just get over me and move on with your life. I'm tired of you hurting me and just coming back to me. I can't believe I even thought I loved you.

The relationship we had. Had. Had. I know it wasn't an amazing relationship. I messed it up mostly. It's my fault. My fault we can't be together. My fault that I can't have her. My fault that I can't be happy. I can't blame her. I can't do anything about it. What could I possibly do to even win her back. I'm already hurt her as much as I could probably have. I've cheated on her, broke her nose, and then left her. Though the nose thing wasn't my fault, she decided to go way too hard on me. Not my fault.

Then there is the fact that she loved me. Past tense. As in not anymore. I loved her too and I still do. She is just amazing and she makes me feel like I'm on the purest ecstasy. I miss her kisses and her touch. I was so close to sex too. I messed up with her. I really did.

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Later
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I have been sitting on this lawn for a couple hours now. Switching positions and wiping my continuos tears. Thinking about my situation and how to get Serena back. I still don't have any idea how I'll even attempt to. Maybe just ask her? No. That's not enough. This is going to take forever just to think of a plan.

"Amelia. It's getting dark. You should come inside."

I wiped my face one more time before turning my head and seeing Rosaline at the door. I can't stay. Not with Serena in the same house.

"I... I think I'll just head home. I don't need to stay."

I stood up and brushed myself off before making my way to my car and getting my keys.

"You've been crying for the past who knows how long. Just sleep here tonight Amelia. You are emotionally drained."

I turned to face Rosaline and just stared at the ground.

"I... I don't know Rosaline. I don't know if I can handle being in the same house as Serena."

"Trust me Amelia. Just stay. You'll be fine. We'll have a talk if you like."

"But-"

"But nothing. Come inside."

Before I could decline, Rosaline grabbed my arm and tugged me inside. She shut the door, locked it, then took my car keys.

"Just stay. You'll be fine. You shouldn't drive while you're so stressed out and when you can't see through your tears."

I quickly wiped my eyes for tears, I don't want to cry all night. Rosaline guided me to the couch and left. She came back and handed me a pillow and a blanket.

"Have a good night rest Amelia. You seem like you need it."

"Ummmm Thank you Rosaline."

She left and entered what I assume is her room. I laid on the couch with the pillow under my head and the blanket over my legs. I laid here on this couch. Staring at a ceiling. Thinking. Tearing up. Imagining about a certain lady in my life. I closed my eyes dreaming about Serena. What I would do to her right now.