Dancing in the unknown.

Sometimes, very often actually the choice you are scared to make is the game changer. We often stay in situations too long because we are comfortable and it is famillar,  however familiar roads do not open  new doors, familiar roads block opportunity ,growth and healing.  I can easily say leaving  a comfortable situation and throwing myself out into the uncomfortable, the unknown, has been a very good decision for myself. Sometimes it is hard, yes but overall , the bad moments do not overpower the good ones, and the bad moments I see as an opportunity for growth.  It may not always seem like that, but later on reflecting that's what it is, an opportunity for growth.

Pattern
Although I have noticed a Pattern, after about a month of dancing here,I want to go back to old ways\ old situations , that I have grown so much from. I start glowing physically, mentally, growing in my walk with god and then end up sliding right back into the comfort zone that I have worked so hard to get out of.

Breaking the pattern
Breaking the pattern however is possible, self awareness is key and I am very self aware of this pattern. That being said, I have to make a conscious choice every day to continue dancing in the unknown. And to know that this will lead to beautiful roads, beautiful change, a beautiful life, and one heck of a story. I think part of the pattern and the problem it strings from has to do with doubts. I doubt that I will be able to continue further down the unknown road
And I get nervous about what lies ahead, However we don't always know what lies ahead. Actually most of the time we don't. But! That is the beauty of it, what if , what lies ahead is .. beautiful , joyful , love , light.
You'll never know if you keep going back to the known.
Whatever lies ahead... has to be wonderful.  
I am making a choice. I am going to keep dancing in the unknown. It's a wonderful , joyful... it grows on you , you grow with it... a wonderful joyful dance.