years in the making //Billie Eilish

Chapter 1

a/n (ok so I got a few things to say before u actually read the book.

1. this book is converted from ao3. credits go to @/lexassmirk on ao3. 

2. this book may contain smut, vulgar language, umm and some other shit I think so enjoy at ur own risk)

"Get out Norah!" Alex threw her things out of the bedroom and continued rummaging through her drawers to toss out everything that was hers

"Alex please stop! Just listen!" Norah pleaded as she helplessly watched Alex angrily throw her things out the door

"No. I don't have to listen, Cuz I fucking saw you!" She had tears streaming down her face thinking about catching her girlfriend in bed with someone else

"In our fucking bed. While I was at work. And I came home early to surprise you because you fucking said I work too much!" Alex didn't like yelling at anyone. She hated raising her voice actually. She always remained calm and collected which is a trait she knew would come in handy when she became a lawyer

"I'm such an idiot!" Alex threw her hands in the air and turned back around to look for more of her things

"No, Alex. It's not what you think. I...It was a mistake okay!" Norah cried. She cried harder than she ever has. She knew she messed things up and if Alex were to ever forgive her, their relationship would never be the same

"A mistake?? You threw away 7 years for a mistake?" Alex stepped into Norah's space and the person in front of her was almost unrecognizable

"I love you" Norah whispered trying to grab Alex's hands

"Dont" Alex pulled away quickly

"You don't fuck someone else when you're in love" She said through gritted teeth

"Now I want you out" Alex shoved a duffle bag in Norah's arms

"So you're just gonna give up on us, lex?" Norah challenged her

"Are you serious?" Big mistake on Norah's part

"You gave up on us the moment you exchanged numbers with this girl" alex stepped forward causing norah to move back

"You gave up on us the moment you started deleting messages between you two so that I wouldn't see them" alex kept walking

"You gave up on us the moment you asked her to come over while I was away and FUCK her in our bed!" norah was now backed up into the wall

"So don't tell me I'm the one throwing us away, norah" alex's voice was low and terrifying

"I don't ever want to see you again" Alex made up her mind. She felt numb inside. She's been with norah since she was 18. 7 years later and it's over just like that. She knew by the way she was looking at her that this was a lost cause and there was nothing norah could've said to change her decision

"lex..please. Can we please talk" It was norah's last effort to try and calm down the rage in alex

"You wanna talk about it?" alex threw her phone on the floor and sat at her desk then crossed her legs

"When did it start?" alex leaned on her hand and waited for an answer

"Lex..." When nora said she wanted to talk this isn't what she meant

"Was she good? How many times?" alex threw out more uncomfortable questions making norah awkwardly stand there like a deer in headlights

"Come on norah! You said you wanted to talk about it so let's talk!" alex didn't want to know the answer to any of those questions, but knew that if she didn't ask in some way it would eat her alive