Helpless

Hes my motivation

I just wanna be yours,
secrets I have held in my heart,
are harder to hide than I thought,

I let it ring, I know its just Stacy anyways. She is the only person who calls me.

Mabye I just wanna be yours,
I wanna be yours-

-ELLA! You are waking up the entire block!

Of course my mom storms in and kills the vibe. She always does.
She watches me as I pick up the phone.

-Hey El! Just making sure you are awake.

- Thanks Stace, see you at school!
Then we hang up.

-Ella, you should clean your room after school. Its disgusting.

I watch my mom leave my room, and get up.
I head towards my closet.
Im about to pick up a black hoodie and some grey sweats, but then I remember. I am in English class with Gabriel today!

I do a little dance, and head back to the closet. I get a pair of baggy blue jeans and a tight brown crop top with a white cloud. I look in the mirror, and my confidence drops to ZERO.

I run towards my desk and open the top drawer. I put on make-up, and it looks natural, but also cute. I let my hair down from the braid I slept in, and brush through it.
I wish I had blonde hair, like Gabriel and Stacy. At least my hair is thick and curly, even though its brown.

Im walking into the kitchen. While I get some cereal, my mom approaches me. Ugh.

- You should start exercising, like Stacy! Why dont you start by getting an apple instead tho?

I walk off. I am going to my room, furious, but also sad. I look in the mirror, and sure enough I dont look as slim as the other girls.
I go to the closet and put on a white jacket over the top. It looks fine, the White cloud ties it in.

Gabriel is the motivation for looking pretty.
What if he notices me!
That might be hard tho, considering I dont talk to anyone but Stace at school..