Inside her Mind

Chapter 1

The whole class scrambled there belongs and started to rush out the door as the bell rung marking first period.

"Penny, would you please stay behind." Mr smith said.

Penny did a small groan under her breath keeping her head down as she slowly continued to pack her things up.

Penny was a quiet 14 year old girl. Well mostly it was like there were two sides of her...always at War. Sometimes she was quiet, polite, sensitive, and conscious. And sometimes she was loud, unruly, disrespectful and honestly reckless. She had brown short hair remarking her short patience. She wore the school blazer around her waist at times going against the school dress code. Sometimes she just felt like doing things that made her feel alive and not like the other kids in her class. Sometimes she just wanted to be forgotten and others remembered. Overall it made her teacher worry as she was going through a tough time as her best friend Emily had a tragic accident in a car crash. Emily would protect Penny from the bullies at her school but now that Emily is gone penny is free game and now is struggling from it.

Penny slowly walked up to her teachers desk, practically dragging her feet behind her. She was anxious, she thought she had done something wrong. She nervously picked at the loose skin around her nails on her hand. She stood there quietly, eyes glued to the floor. Mr smith was cleaning off the whiteboard. 

"Penny, please take a seat." Mr smith said still cleaning off the whiteboard. 

Penny started to think and worry about being late to first period, she also didn't want the other girls wondering why she was called to stay behind for so long.

She did so though, she took a seat at the desk closest to his desk and looked down at her desk still picking at her nails. 

Mr smith moved to stand leaning on his desk facing her, he placed his eraser down and cleared his throat. "Penny, how have you been lately?" he said trying to catch her gaze looking down at her.

"Fine." she said still looking down. That wasn't the truth though, the truth was that guilt was eating away at her. The guilt that she wasn't at the hospital for Emily's remaining 5 hours of life. She didn't make it in time. 

"Really? You've been all over the place lately." Penny kept her head down as he continued. "Some of your teachers say you've been acting out lately."

Silence.

"Is that true?" he asked waiting for an answer.

Penny just shrugged, waiting for his next 

Mr smith sighed. "Look I understand you miss her and its only been a month-"

Penny did a loud sigh cutting him off. 'What did he know?' she thought to herself.

"But you need to get back on track with your grades and attitude, I want you to do well in school and in life." He said trying to sound motivational.

Penny felt something stir in her. She didn't care what he wanted, she didn't care about anything at all.

"A- and to be honest your grades are not doing that well-"

"Well, what do you expect?" Penny said in a angry whisperer almost too quiet to hear.

"Sorry?" He said with a small disbelief chuckle. 

"Nothing." she said under her breath.

Mr smith sighed.

"I understand how you must be feeling and how your feeling will impact your school life but-"

"No- no you don't understand!" Penny said standing up, she had shocked herself with this sudden burst. Although he was stirring her up.

He looked at her in disbelief, he had heard she had started doing this but hadn't believed it.