The cure for my madness

Part 25: Making up

I sat on my couch while on my phone that was laying on my table in front of me. My hands were cold and shaky. I was scared that he would answer my text with something hateful. Rejection has always scared me in my life. In the middle of my thoughts I heard my phone getting a notification. It was him.

Sure we can talk.

By that text I couldn't judge how his mood was. It sounded friendly but slightly annoyed. I felt bad that I was so focused on putting my past relationship behind that I simply forgot I had a relationship and I hurt the person I loved the most. I suppose that I had to in order to be a good partner now since everything with Marcus was making me anxious. It was now just a matter of minutes before he would come to my apartment. The knock on the door scared me even though I was expecting it.

-"Where are you?" His voice made me feel comforted already.

-" The couch."

When I made eye contact with him I saw what I caused. His eyes looked so sad, and it was my fault.

-"So...I just want to say I'm sorry for everything Alex. I'm genuinely so sorry and didn't mean to scream and-"

-"I appreciate your apology Dol and I forgive you. It's been sad and lonely without you." He interrupted me.

-"There are not enough words for describing how much I missed you. I could try but it would be hard to do that." I added a little laugh after what I said to lighten the mood a little.

-"You could always try."

-"Nah I'm not as good with words as you are." Then my eyes met his and we smiled at each other.

-"Have you completely stopped talking to Zoey?" He asked. That question woke up the memory of me screaming at him that night. The thought made me shiver in discomfort.

-"Yes, it's better that way. You were right, she ain't good for me."

-"You deserve good people around you Dol." As he said that his hand moved to mine.

-"I can't live without you." His mouth turned into a smile and he let out a chuckle, probably out of flatterness.

-"I'm serious Alex, you make my life so much better and you have taught me a lot."

-"Can't live without you either, the time without you were tourture. I was a bit scared you would never reach out again. I still had hope of course but since you screamed at me, I got unsure."

-"I'm so sorry I screamed at you. I honestly didn't recognise myself when I was acting like that. Zoey made me act so strange,but it was obviously me who acted like an asshole when all you did was to protect me."

-"I just want the best for you."

-"Oh I just remembered I wrote something for you." His face looked excited but also shocked.

I looked through my apartment to find it, the love letter. That love letter I wrote one night when I was missing him a lot. The time without him made me appreciate him a lot more than I already did. I was so dumb to mess up things and creating problems that didn't really excist.

-"I found it." I finally found it and handed it to him. The only thing that worried me was that he wouldn't like it at all and think my writing is bad.

-"I hope you will like it because I mean every word."

I love the way you make me smell like you when I hug you.

I love the feeling of your hair when I run through it with my fingers.

I love when your eyes sparkle in the moonlight.

I love laying on your chest and just listening to your heartbeats.

I love the look on your face when I say "I love you".

I love when we hug because it feels like we are two puzzle pieces that just fit together.

I love to dance in the kitchen with you and listen to "our" song.

I love how we can relate to the same things.

I love to see your face shine up every time you see me, as if it would be the first time.

I love how your voice changes when you get nervous.

I love when the butterflies in my stomach go crazy when you kiss me.

I love when your soft lips meet mine and your hands run through my hair at the same time.

I love the feeling of the soft fabric of your shirts against my skin.

I just simply love you.

-"You hate it don't you? I know it's very simple but-"

-"No Dol, I love it." It was hard to read his facial expression right there and then. But his words made it much clearer. He loved it so much which shocked me. Marcus never loved my small romantic cards I made for him. The amount of time and effort I layed on making those and all I got back was him giving a small kiss on the forehead and a small thank you. The cards I gave him always ended up in the trash can. Alex was different, even though his facial expressions were hard to read sometimes. I still felt like everything he said was real and not something he forced just to make me happy.

-"Are you sure?" I asked again nervously and was still surprised.

-"Yeah, I wouldn't lie about it. Trust me." He smiled softly at me and then gave me a kiss.

What did I do to deserve someone like him?

-"There is something I would like to ask you, Dol." He said a little nervously.

-"What is that?" I responded.

-"Would you be comfortable with meeting my parents?"

That question made me smile.

-"Yeah, I would love to meet them."

-"I have told them some about you and they are excited to meet you." The fact that he had already told them about me made me feel special. Marcus' parents always hated me and he introduced me to them by coming uninvited to a birthday party and they ended up blaming me for "ruining" the party. The truth was that I was dragged to the party because Marcus was too eager to introduce me.

-"You told them about me?" I grinned at him and had a teasing attitude.

-"Well yeah, our relationship is getting serious and so it's important to me." He said shyly.

-"I'm excited but nervous about it."

-"Don't be nervous though because they will love you. How could someone not love someone like you?" Those words were almost the exact ones Marcus said before he introduced me to his family, and that ended like a disaster.