Stages of Grief | Noctyx

Acceptance

Fulgur Ovid

"Do you have someone you like?"

Uki. It's Uki. No matter how much you ask me, whether it's my yesterday, or tomorrow self, that answer will never change.

Of course, I know he is dating Sonny. I kinda feel regretful I didn't do anything about these feelings, but it's kinda my fault. I was so sure he reciprocated these emotions, but I was wrong.

When Noctyx happened, Uki and I have this small little bubble with no one else but us. We flirted, and dated. I became too confident that he will always stick by my side... but I was wrong.

It hurt me... fuck, who am I lying to? It wrecked me. I was depressed over the fact that all of it was just for show. Entertainment. To pass the time.

I cried myself to sleep, every night. I wished for these lingering feeling to go away. I must say I don't cry about it these days, but it'll never change the fact that I love him.

I love him, too much that I'm willing to let go for his happiness that's surely not me.