I felt his lips moving down my neck and towards my collar bone. His hands slid up my body and cupped my breast and gave it a squeeze.
This is wrong. I shouldn't be doing this. I squeezed my eyes shut in attempt to stop the tears threatening to come out.
"Lauren?" The deep voice questioned "Are you listening to me?"
"Sorry I was distracted what did you say?" I replied, regretting the words as soon as the came out of my mouth.
He left a trail of kisses up my neck until he reached my ear. "I want you to touch me" He seductively whispered.
I reached down to unzip his pants, I need to do this. My thoughts from today were disgusting. I needed to punish myself. I can't let myself get away with that. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I turned around as the tears spilled out of my eyes, recalling the previous events from that day.
"I just don't understand" my best friend, Normani said. "Why would anyone chose to be gay? It's disgusting."
"I don't really think it's a choice, Mani." I retorted "I don't think anyone would chose to be something that's so unaccepted in today's society."
"Why are you standing up for them Lauren? Are you also a fag?" She questioned.
I sighed and looked down. "No, I have a boyfriend." I mumbled. Out of the corner of my eye I saw possibly the most beautiful girl, Camila Cabello. Camila was popular but quiet at the same time. Basically she was unapproachable. I would do anything to be able to talk to her. Anything.
Stop, Lauren. You have a boyfriend.
The bell rang, signifying it was time to go to my next class. I grabbed my backpack and turned around accidentally bumping into the one and only, Camila Cabello.
I had no idea what to say. It was almost as if I was star struck.
"I'm sologize." I stuttered. fuck. sologize?
"Sologize?" Camila questioned.
"I tried saying sorry and apologize at the same time I-" I was cut off by Justin grabbing my arm
"Come on, babe. We're gonna be late for class" He said.
"Lauren fucking listen to me!" I was brought back to reality with the help of my boyfriends yelling
"This is the third time you've done this, what the fuck is going on? Do you not want to be with me anymore is that it? Am I not good enough for you?" Justin continued, only making more tears fall.
"I'm sorry." I apologized. "I just need to be alone right now, okay?" I asked
"Alright but baby please don't hide things from me, I love you." He leaned over to kiss me but I quickly turned my face, causing him to kiss me on the cheek.
I walked Justin to the door and went back to my room once he left. I couldn't deal with anymore thinking about how disgusting and disturbing my earlier thoughts were, so I just went to sleep.
A/N
Okay hi so yeah this is a new fanfic and idk if it's starting out well or something so please leave some constructive criticism in the comments and let me know what you like and dislike!!!
