Den of Monsters

Guilt: Ayano Tateyama SS

"Hey Neechan! Lets play, kido and seto are waiting for us!"

"Ehehe...sorry shuuya, Your sister is a bit tired today..."

"Ehhh? You said that yesterday too!"

"I did?! Oh my..i must've forgotten"

"Hey Neechan, are you sad about leaving your old school?"

"Eh? No of course not, my new school is so much better, Akane-sensei has been nothing but kind to me!"

"You made any friends yet?"

"Hehe of course! Your sister is amazingly cool afterall!"

"Debatable~"

"Hey! That's mean!"

"Heh i am gonna go play with kido and seto, see ya Neechan!"

I waved my adorable little brother goodbye as he left my room with a smile.

Sigh....i hated this...

Why do i have to lie like this, i am not dissatisfied with my new school, its clean and gives good lessons but it's not helping...

how can i move on?

I abandoned him, left him curled up into a ball inside that hellish box he calls a room, his mind probably thinking of how much of a scum i am.

He abhores me i bet and i can't blame him, we've been together for 3 years, we played around together and ate together at times, he laughed and i laughed, he cried and i cried, he got angry and i got angry so why...

Why did i have to do something so stupid!, why did i do that?! Why?

Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?

I could've just helped him endure the pain for the time we had together, but no. I just had to play the hero again!

I am not a hero, i am weak, my brain isn't the greatest of them all but i always try to help others even if it's all far from my reach.

Mom used to call this bravery but no, this is just stupidity, Mom!. Bravery isn't created in sudden moments, we're born with it.

I just want to disassociate from the world for years, a time where ayano tateyama would be forgotten along with her stupid STUPID mistake.

I guess my wish was fufilled when Akane-sensei told me that my file was accepted by the best school in our country.

The advanced nurturing highschool...there isn't a highschooler who hasn't heard of its name, amazing campus,great scholarship and a simulated society system.

I felt so shy first stepping into this school, my dad nearly bawled out his eyes crying at my leaving, my siblings were happy for me to finally get a chance to experience something new, something that might make me move on...

But there is no meaning in moving on, shintaro is still in his room, my dad called his mom and sister and there's no change, he is still in there...cursing me.

I opened up to someone for the first time in years, he is a really expressionless person, doesn't speak much nor feel much but i for some reason found that just perfect for me to open up.

I cried, silently i did and he listened, when i asked him for his opinion it was...cruel, he spoke like someone beyond my stupid teenager issues, i felt mocked yet...allured, i suppose i always wanted someone to finally tell me i am an idiot aside from myself.

I cursed and shouted at him but he smiled, he felt happy that i pointed out his cruelty, i thought he was some sort of masochist or a sadist who enjoys playing with my mind but no...he is just disassociated from our stupid everyday issues, he tries to imitate what his friends and i do like a puppy wanting to fit in with his family, it's odd and creepy but it's also interesting.

Maybe i should get closer to him, understand what his mind is all about, walk with him on this path of hardship this school has for us, maybe then will i finally grow up and move on...

Sigh...i am sorry shuuya, Your sister really isn't that cool after all.

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A/N:

SS chapter this time cuz i am a bit too lazy to write rn, the next 3 chapters will be mainly just for fun, they are part of the story and will be the transition from the cruise to the sports festival and the ryuuen ass kicking, our favorite royal prince is gonna get his time to shine as well!.

Thanks for reading and aideu