Unheard

Do they even care?

You sit there thinking to yourself 'What if I did this? Would people even care, be happy for me? What's the point? They won't' Some days you wonder why you even try to do fun and exciting things, you express your excitement and you get nothing back other than judgemental looks or ignorance.

You realise that nobody carries compassion and support with them anymore and you start to believe that there really is going to be nobody. Because there isn't, is there? You worry that everything you do won't even be appreciated and that there's no point anyway. Why do you even try anymore? 

You believe this for ages, you know inside that it's a bad and silly reason to stop doing things you enjoy and want to do, but it just feels so true. Why do it if you're the only one that's going to care and be happy for you.

One day you find someone. Someone who you love and care about deeply, whether that's a best friend, a boy/girlfriend, a family member, a teacher or even just a random person in public. This person, you realise, will support you and congratulate you with your accomplishments and they will help you celebrate your highs, but also be there for you in your lows. Even though you have found this person, those feelings, those thoughts that nobody is really going to care about what you do, stay with you. You can't seem to shake that feeling because you've spent so long believing it. 

The reason you believe it, is because one of the people you thought was going to support you and encourage you, one day, just doesn't listen to your happiness and you tell them something you are happy about, but they act as if they could not care less, as if they don't want to hear it, as if they are sick of you talking about it. Even though you've found your person/people that will support you, there's still that one that stays in your mind, holding you back. You feel as though you just need to ignore that thought and do what you want to do, but you just lose all motivation for it.

You want to work on your goals but you don't know how and where to find the motivation to do so. They just won't care. You feel as though there is no point in continuing your journey to your goal because, you don't know, Do they even care?

Author's Note: I know that you might feel this way sometimes, but I know you can do it, I believe in you and I know that there are so many other people that do as well. Keep on going <3