I hate myself.
I want to die and end everyone's problems.
I know I'm not that person someone would even like to be with.
I know I can't be what you want me to be.
I'll never be able to make you proud or even happy.
I know I'm not perfect but every time I look at my mother or anyone else in my home, I feel that they don't deserve someone like me.
Someone who's not good with studies heck who doesn't even try to study.
Someone who looks like shit .
Someone who is dumb as fuck.
I never did anything that can make you proud.
You wanted me to be atleast 10% as smart as my cousin who is a genius.
I'm not smart.
Not even 0.1% like him.
Cause I can't.
I can't be someone else who's not me.
And I hate that I am not even able to be myself.
I lost myself.
I don't remember what I am anymore.
