i won't lose you agian

why did you leave?!

N narration:
It wasn't saposed to be like this ... Why? Why did she leave me behind?!

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We we're just fixing the pod like usual when Thad walk in returning Uzi gun to her and imformed us about how J body "crawled away" when he get the gun, we got concerned and went back to investigate, turns out after we left the colony there were recent disapearences and that has to be the work of J but while we investigate we found a wall with Uzi special eye symbol thing on it, she had a theory that it might had something to do with how we disasembly drones regenerate but i stop her bcz i noticed... A weird hand crawling to us, it grabbed Thad leg and i shoot a mistle to the ceiling for some light, there was something horrifyingly huge up there crawling around and it took Thad hostage, we chased after it and saved Thad agian, he even invieted us to a party of his, me and Uzi we're happy about it but focus on J agian but than she grabbed me up on the ceiling leaving Uzi alone, i managed to get down to save her but J wrecked Uzi gun and it was going to explode at any moment

N: Uzi c'mon! We have to get out of here!!
Uzi: no wiat! You go on ahead i need to do something first!
N: but-
Uzi: plz just go! I'll be right behind you!!

I was such a idiot to belived that bcz i did fly away but when i escaped the building exploded... I wanted to go in there and save her but worker drones we're holding me back, why? She's 1 of your kind! Your saposed to save her!!
I jumped in after the fire went out and searched everywhere but... I couldn't find her body anywhere .... Its gone... Why did i have to listen to her and leave?! I could've bring her with me...

Days later... There wasn't any point for me to keep V tied up so i let her go... I couldn't bother with anything anymore... So i stopped hunting and eating... V try to convince me to eat something few times but i couldn't bare to eat after what i did... So i kept myself shut in the landing pod for some peace and quiet... But sometimes i did have my limet so i ate ... Now I'm on my way to another colony bcz i don't want to hurt anymore of Uzi friends or family... The journey was long... All i see was the blowing snow and old broken buildings... Nothing out of the ordinary.... I had a long way to go and it nearly sunrise so i took shelter in a random building and sleep....

N?

Hey NNNNNNNN!

Wake up!

N: huh?!
Uzi: finally! Its the middle of the night! Help me out with these boxes man!
N: o-oh! Ok sorry i over slept
Uzi: its fine, we didnt even bother to sleep yesterday so we can have a little break
N: uh-huh...
Uzi: hey let me ask you something
N: yeah?
Uzi: what are you going to do when i die?
N: huh? What...
Uzi: like if right here and now, i die, what are you going to do from now on?
N: thats... A hard question... Tho i do need to eat to survive here, i geuss i'll have to hunt but i won't hunt anyone in your colony!
Uzi: and?
N: and mostly.... I'll be sad...
Uzi: huh? Why?
N: bcz your my first best friend so its natural that i be sad that you die, we always been together when we need each other Uzi, i don't want to lose that
Uzi: hahaha you are a stranged disasembly drone arent you?
N: hahaha geuss i am

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Did she saw this coming? If so why? I told her she was the only person who was ever there for me and i was there for her ... So why did she leave me alone?!