Poetry

Useless

I looked at them

their smile glimmering in the sun

All I could see was them

I didn't want to leave

I saw their tears

I could do nothing

I felt so helpless

I wanted to do something

Anything

I was useless

The next day I saw them

their smile glimmering in the sunlight again

They were happy

I was happy

Useless

It came to my head again

You can't do anything

You are useless

Suddenly the tears came to my eyes

"are you okay?"

I tried to speak

No words came out

I was not okay

I would never tell them that though

I have to be happy

For them

Once I got home I flopped onto my bed

Not thinking about how I had a family

I stayed there all night

Nothing was on my mind except useless

I heard someone walk in

I felt the bed dip

Was is them?

I looked up and saw my mother

I didn't know what to do

Do I speak?

Do I run away?

I did what my brain told me to do

I ran

I ran far away

As far as I could

Until I made it to their house

I slowly walked up and knocked on the door

Their mother answered

"Is Alex here?"

Tears stained my face

"In their room"

I ran up the stairs

Straight into their arms

I needed them so badly

I cried and cried

"It's going to be okay"

No it is not

It never will be

"I am not okay"

It finally came out

I was worried

What would they say?

I was afraid

What if they don't love me anymore?

I was fine

I heard their soothing voice

I felt their soft touch

I was wrong

Everything is okay

It always will be when I am with them

I love you

Always