unexpected life

20

Twenty years old, being older isn't easy. I'm worried a lot in this world. The world is full of Mystery, and unexpected. I'm 20 now, there's alot of action with lots of unexpected surprises. I walked on my cross with a little bit of freedom. My desire is so high, sometimes I can't control it and it's wild. At a loss to set it up unless I satisfy it.

Sometimes there are things that shouldn't be done, But I did it.

I feel my life is full of sin and guilt. But it's fun when I do (sometimes).

But it's me. I was born to be a good girl. It's my motto to remind me I need to be good always, so I can take control of myself And understand my boundaries. I want to remain known as innocence but I'm quite mature actually.

Because the current me has changed a little, but only myself knows.

I'm not being open anymore. And asking more opinions on myself and myself is who one understands me. And became my best friend forever.

The 5th semester in the university is very tough. I lost my circle friends. They left me. And I'm not worried about it. I did it, because I've heard about "what you give what you get".
I don't give a fkk, fuck off negativity. I deserve better. Please

At first I was an extrovert, but now I'm an introvert.

I'm losing my confidence. It's hard to get along with people, Because at this age I learned that many people cannot be trusted.

Human nature is manifold terrible.  Confused about which one I need to talk about but I'll write it all here I think. Next

Because here, I feel I'm unknown And these stories will be my stories.

I love sharing alot, But I don't trust other people to read it, and I don't want others to think too much of me, and being nosy.

And for now I only have myself that I can trust, so it's better if I just write everything down to reduce the strange feeling I feel. So, life is complicated I can say. Ssee yaa