Chase Me, Ara Portia (Published Under IMMAC PPH)

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I couldn't believe what is happening. Humihithit pa rin si Ara ng usok na mula sa vape stick niya habang ako ay kinakalma ang sarili nang dahil sa utos niya. Even though I am mad, I still find her so damn hot and cute at the same time now that she's letting me see two sides of her. The bad-ass side yet the other one is cute one. She smokes yet she knows her limitations. Ilang hithit na lang ay itinigil na rin niya.

"Oh, kalmado ka na?" She asked me. "Okay, then. Pasok ka sa loob. Usap tayo."

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang sumunod na naman sa kaniya. Nauna siyang pumasok dahil ako ay umikot pa. Sa oras na makapasok naman ako ay nakatingin lang siya sa unahan ng kotse. Hinihintay siguro na ako ang mag-umpisa ng usapan.

"Ara, who the fuck is Clarence and why did you kiss him?"

"He paid for my drink. I just gave him a favor-"

"That's not a valid reason, Ara." I was quick to cut her off. "It's like you're telling me that if he can have a kiss from you just because he bought you a fucking drink, na ako ang dapat na magbabayad, he can even fuck you if he bought you something better than a drink."

"It's not the same thing, Kurt."

"It is, Ara! Kung ako ang lalaking nagbayad ng drink mo, then does mean I will have exactly the kiss he had? If I paid you more, would I get more than just a kiss? That is exactly the same thing, Ara. And not to fucking mention it, you know the guy. You know the fucking guy."

"It was only Clarence!"

"Kesyo si Clarence lang 'yon o kung sino man, you kissed him in front of me! You told me you want me, then why are you wanting someone else, Ara Portia?"

I heard her deep sigh.

"Ayesha was a past-"

"Tangina, Kurt." Pinutol na naman niya ako. "Huwag mo nang ipaalala si Ayesha sa akin."

"Then, it is true. Si Ayesha ang dahilan kung bakit nga hinalikan mo ang lalaking iyon sa harapan ko? For what? Para iparamdam sa akin 'yong kung ano mang naramdaman mo when you saw me being kissed by a woman I did not even want?"

"Hindi mo ginusto, Kurt?" She sarcastically asked me. Napahilamos sa mukha at tiningnan na ako nang maayos. "Don't fucking tell me you did not like that kiss when you already fucked her six days ago. Huwag mo akong paikutin-"

"I thought we understand each other, Ara. Six days pa 'yon. It was only three days ago when we started flirting-"

"Flirting?" Hindi makapaniwala ang mukha niya. "Just fucking flirting. Wow ha? Tangina good for you and your god damn ego."

"Ara, wala akong kasalanan sa halik na ginawa ni Ayesha. Kitang-kita mo ang nangyari."

"Oo na!" She then again screamed. This time, masamang-masama na rin ang tingin sa akin. Halatang nagpipigil ng iyak nang dahil nakikita ko ang pagkagat niya sa pang-ibaba niyang labi. "Oo na, Kurt. I was just immature. I was mad that a random woman can kiss you like that in public habang ako, can do nothing but to chase you stupidly. I was mad that I thought if that woman can kiss you, I can kiss any man I would like too. I was mad that you of all people can be kissed like that by a woman you slept with while I was just staring at you. Galit ako pero hindi sa'yo. Galit ako sa sarili ko dahil lahat na lang yata ng ginagawa ko para makuha ka, ikinakaubos ng sarili ko. I am losing myself just because of this goddamn feeling, Kurt."