Point of view: Erin Lindsay
I use another cigarette. It was the ninth or maybe the tenth. I don't really know.
I shiver. The wind begins to come up and the sea rises. My feet hit the water, I shiver more and more. My entire body is even colder ...
Then, I feel a presence. I don't need to turn around for recognizing this person. I knew who it was immediately. He sits down next to me, without saying anything. During several minutes, he stayed here, silently.
- Jay called me, he says finally.
- It wasn't necessary ...
- I don't think so. He is really worried ...
- It's just temporary. He will get better.
I feel his gaze on me. I know he doesn't understand and I know he wants to do it. But I can't. It's not so easy ...
- What happens Erin?
- Nothing. It's okay ... I'll leave... For a while ...
- And am I supposed to believe you when you says all is good? He interrups me.
- ... Just like holidays, I explain.
- And you still imagine that I continue to believe your lies ...
- I'm telling the truth Hank!
- Not with me Erin. You can lie to everyone but not me.
I shrug my shoulders. I didn't want to justify myself anymore ... I just want to ... stay alone.
- Talk to me Erin. Don't do this.
- What?
- Withdraw into yourself.
- And I don't. I just want everyone stop asking me if I'm okay ...
- I'm not everyone. And Jay neither. He's your future husband Erin. You can't run away every time you feel bad. Stop retreating you into silence.
- He's not ...
I turn my face toward him. He looks surprised.
- He's not my future husband. I said no.
... And now, his surprise augmented ... Much more.
- I should have listened to you. He's not a guy for me.
- That's the reason you're living with him, for months?
I don't know what to say. Honestly, I harldy understand his reaction. He was the first to disapprove our relation ... And now he speaks in Jay's?
- I needed you Hank.
The words just came out from my lips ...
- I really needed you. That's Right ... I wouldn't have lied to you. But... I didn't know what to do ...
- You don't have to justify Erin. I screw up, not you. Even if I didn't understand your choice, I should have to respect it.
- Well ... Anyway it's over now ...
- You can't say that Erin. And you can't either.
- That's life ...
- No, it's not. You only do this because you're going through a hard time and you refuse any help.
I don't answer. I know he's right but I'm like that.
- I'm sorry Erin. I'm really sorry ... I should be there for you.
I understand then he's not just talking about our situation ... And I understand especially that he knows
