Just A Monster (KP FIC)

10(?)

I was just starting to wake up, my eyes slowly fluttered open and my vision became slightly clear as the energy to even move returned to me. Although I always sleep on the floor in the cafeteria something was off about where I was currently seated. It didn't feel like home. I quickly sat up and looked around to see claw marks and cracks all over the wall that sat before me, small dust and pebbles fell from them. I was also sitting in a pile of glass shards, The hell happened here?

Oh... Now I remember. I am in a world of trouble when I get back to the cafeteria. I sighed and leaned my head against the wall whilst trying to avoid poking my self with the glass that dangled from the shattered window, I'm almost 100% sure I'm responsible for the amount of debris that was scattered all over the ground. I probably tired my self out and fainted or some shit I could barely remember what happened that led me to that point. 

I curl my legs upward and against my chest carefully, making sure I wasn't injured during my tantrum. Once I was sure of such I wrapped my legs around them and held them close to my chest. I wasn't hurt, but my hands were still shaking violently and I could feel my eyes begin to water as my breathing picked up in speed. Obviously I hadn't burned out all of the fuel I had bottled up inside, I still felt afraid, afraid of what would happen if I went back to the cafeteria and face all of my 'friends'. How would I explain my actions to them? How would I regain their trust if I was even given the chance. I MURDERED people and ate them for my own satisfaction, it's like they wouldn't be able to recognize me anymore. I can't seem to recognize my self anymore.

I glanced around the room a few more times again, the sight just making me more disgusted at the beast I shifted my self into. I deserved this, I deserve to be sitting and bathing In my own guilt. My nose suddenly wrinkled as a hoarse sob escaped my lips. I couldn't stop my self from bursting into tears and gripping my legs closer to my body as I cried into them, why was I the one shedding tears? Why did I feel the need to find a shoulder to cry on? Do I feel no shame? I could feel my chest almost burning as I cried louder, trying to stop my self had only made my feelings more eager to escape.

"Uhh some shit really hit the fan in here." I sniffled a bit, looking up at the person to see Panther once again. Standing at the doorway and looking around dumbfounded. I growled a bit while trying to hold my petty tears.

"Now isn't the time..." I mumbled, dipping my head. The sight of Panther had memories flooding back to me, especially when they scolded me after what I had done to Sinox, the name seems kind of redundant now.. 

"If THIS isn't the time then I don't think there ever will be." They retorted. They waved their paw around a bit, referring to the room around them which was on the brim of collapsing. We sat in silence for some time, Panther awkwardly shifting from time to time while I continued to hold back my cries. Suddenly, they came and sat next to me while nervously scratching the tuft of fur rested on their shoulders. What are they planning?

"Don't look towards me to comfort you, I'm not about this whole friendship stuff so leave me out of it." They grumbled, sounding genuinely upset about my current state. I didn't really need them to comfort me now. I was already taking some deep breaths and inching closer to a calmer state.

"It's whatever I guess.. Just having someone present is enough for me." I mumbled the last part to my self despite not caring if the other had heard, and they did. Covering their face and looking the other way while grumbling annoyingly. I couldn't help but smile a bit when they turned my way again, slightly hoping they'd return it. They obviously didn't, instead facing me and frowning while baring their teeth.

"Don't look at me like that damnit." They hissed as they turned the other way. I sighed with a hint of relief as I finally relaxed, leaning my back against the wall again while shooting continuous glances towards the feline. They were still stunned at the amount of chaos littered around the room, looking back and fourth with wide eyes and brushing paws around the larger claw marks. I had this sudden urge to hold their paw. The chances of my head getting twisted the other way around were at 99%, but I was willing to risk that to be honest. It was so exposed as it traced along the floor tiles. 

Fuck it. I swiftly maneuvered my paw over to theirs and lifted it with my own, squeezing it slightly. Panther suddenly froze I didn't look them in the eyes but I could tell they looked baffled at the nerve I had to even try such a thing. And just like that the room had fallen silent again I almost regretted what I did, loosening the grip I had on their paw until I heard something that only made me grip them tighter again. I smiled a bit as I looked towards them, staring into space again.

"Are you purring?" I cooed. They flinched, their eyes shooting open as they looked towards me confused.

"NO! You psychopath!" They hissed. Surprisingly I held my composure while they began ranting in my face I knew they didn't mind the sudden encounter, they hadn't even tried to pull their paw away yet. I just listened to them complain with an amused smile on my face as I rubbed small circles around their palm with my thumb.

I was feeling a little bit down lately, so now you have a random ass fluff chapter that nobody asked for. Fuck off. 😇