Forbidden and Afraid

Chapter One: First Glimpse

Cailin's POV

I wake up, wishing for a few more hours, minutes, seconds, in bed. Not wanting to face the day, I drag myself out of bed. Feeling like a puppet being controlled by the mad hatter, I walked over to my small vanity. As I look at its disgusting yellow hue, I sigh and begin my morning routine.

Searching through my drawers, I pull out a sweater that hugs my wrists, and is a dark gray color. Hanging just belong my waist before gripping my thighs. It has Bring Me the Horizon written on it along with a picture of the band faded in the background. With some more digging, I managed to find a pair of black, ripped skinny jeans.

I shuffled to the bathroom where I brushed my teeth and combed my hair. Which really wasn't hard, I had recently had it cut into a short pixie style and the right side shaved off. I loved it, my mom hasn't even noticed it yet. It's been over a month.

I pulled a black beanie on and shoved my thick, black glasses up the slope of my nose. Checking my messenger bag to make sure everything was there, I headed back to my room and sat on my bed.

Checking the time on my shitty $5 phone, I ran down stairs, slipped on my black combat boots, grabbed my book and earbuds as I raced out of the door. I barely made it to the bus stop in time when it came lumbering down the paved stretch and sighing to a stop, awaiting me to get on.

I slowly stumble down the aisle trying to find a seat, picking one near the back, I curl up by the window and stare as the world's colors flood together like water paints.

The bus hugs the curb as we lurched forward making the sharp turn into the schools ocean-of-a parking lot. I began to shake ever so lightly as the bus hissed to a stop and kids spill out of the small opening. I had a firm grip on my bag strap and another on my favorite book, The Outsiders. I took a shaky breath ad prepared myself for another school year in a new school with new people. I sighed. Great.

Whispering "excuse me" and "sorry" every few seconds, I maneuvered my way through the thick crowd of students. I finally broke free only to run into someone, knocking her book out of her hand. I bent down to pick it up and saw it was That Was Then, This Is Now by S.E Hinton, who also wrote The Outsiders.

I smiled slightly as I handed her the book. My face heating up as the embarrassment set in.

"Oh my fuck. I am so sorry!" I said nervously. She gave me a crooked grin and shrugged.

"Don't worry about it. Are you new?"

" Haha yeah. That noticeable?"

"Just a little bit" she said while giggling. " Look, let me show you where the office is, so you won't be stumbling around blind all day. Okay? Okay."

I nodded slowly and trailed behind her as she led us through a labyrinth of hallways. Finally emerging in what looks to be the lobby.

"Shouldn't the busses pull in in front of the lobby?"

"No. The cafeteria and the homerooms are located in the back of the school. So there's no point." She clarified.

Dropping me off in front of the office, she smiled and said the most amazing thing I have ever heard.

"Stay golden, Ponyboy." And with that she was gone.

Authors Note: Hey Guys!! So this is my first book on wattpad and the first thing I've written for a little over a year. Comment what you think and if you have any ideas. Vote and all that fun stuff. I'll hopefully be writing a new chapter every night and publishing it when I get to school. So there should be no delays with the updates. Okay thanks bye!