i've never been in hell
but is this it?
'cause it's not so bad at all
i swim into the thoughts of suicide
while breathing in your chemicals
i cannot die a second time
maybe this is the only way to survive
if i pretend i'm alright
come hold me, touch me
i'll be everything you want me to be
worship you like a god
i'll even fall apart on command
my life's in your hands
i've never been in hell
but is this it?
'cause it's not so bad after all
i'm injecting all your happy
so i could feel something inside me
i've been numb for so many years
trapped in this cage where i can't breathe
let's forcefeed lovely
come curse me, watch me
as i beg for your fuckin mercy
do you like my face when it's filled with tear streaks
somehow i no longer wish to be free
what have you done to me
i've never wanted hell
but now i yearn for it
i never knew that love
could make me want to feel it all
now, watch me fall
