part one: loss

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i firstly want to thank you if you are reading this, i hope you enjoy.


you are so deeply entitled

you keep repeating the same lines over

do you know what it means

or do you just say it to feel better

about your life

your lies

your jealousy

your problems

yourself

- the sorry after betrayal


guilt came for me

I didn't think I needed it

but here I am

locked up once again

can't you leave

- guilt for something you never did


I wonder why it is always me and never her

and then I realized

I am easier to hurt

I am easier to put the blame on

because you do not see me cry when the world is quiet

all the tears I have wasted on your words

you do not see it

so you think it does not affect me

why do you think that I am not trying

when all I ever did was try?

- never enough


when I feel sad

you ignore

when I feel happy

you say I should stop being annoying

when I feel left behind

you say I need to keep up

when I feel exhausted

you say it's just this one thing

when I feel anger

you notice me, you talk, you scream

you finally listened

but now it is all my fault

- parent and kid


you shout

you ignore

you think you are right

you think it is a competition

you don't listen

but I keep begging

listen to me

please?


you are on my mind

I wonder

will you ever just leave?

leave me alone, leave me for peace

but then I remember

all the things you said

maybe it is good you are on my mind

so I won't let you come back

- realizing



you laugh harder when I pass

you smile too much with your mouth and too less with your eyes

you think I care

about your happiness

I wish I didn't

- caring after they left


you told me three words

over and over

saying them to me and not to her

lies

lies

lies

- someone else


how can I be so sad

about something that never even happened


hey could you listen?

what?

could you listen?

what are you saying?

could you please listen?

I don't understand ?

I asked you to listen to me.

that's all I asked.

please

listen

- not being heard 

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⏰ Last updated: Dec 08, 2022 ⏰

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