A fading lady searching for her reflection

I, a young spirit full of light
a sunflower that brightens under the sunrise.
A joy walking in the town trying to make her presence known in everyone's  life
a girl that smiles from the morning to the night having hopes that seemed to be wilder and higher than her
yet she still believes that it would come true
You may call it foolishness or excitement to live
I myself don't know
It seems to me that "as long as I can breathe  I'll do wherever I want " at that time it was easy for me to breathe and the world was large enough
my soul was new
And with the courage that I carry  I run through Aphrodite 
I asked: Aphrodite dear beautiful Aphrodite will I be blessed with your charm and beauty
Will I dazzle people around me and put them under my spell?

Yet Aphrodite didn't bother to face me nor speak a word
all I saw was her back fading away as she walked away

I didn't seem to know rejection at that time so I flowed the light that lead me to Apollo I looked at him with admiration wishing that he won't turn me down and said :
"Dear Apollo would you grant me some of your light so I can show the people myself
So I can be seen and loved by them?"

He looked at me with sadness drawn on his face
Have you seen a light being sad before?

He said: "you don't need my light, you already have yours here as he pressed his finger into my heart he continued:" but be careful the light that hides under the heart may one day cause a fire that burns the soul,
believe me, young child, you don't want to carry such pain. your passion for life may end you like it ends Acuras so next time don't come near Apollo and his light"
And then in the blink of an eye, he disappeared

A heart of glass a mind of stone it's the phrase that could describe me

And by it, you could automatically know that his words didn't have their affect me

I didn't give up. I walked the same path searching for Athena till I found her
I asked: "dear Athena grant me your brain and your witness so I can make my people proud and lift their heads"

Athena replied:" as much as I want to help  you as much as I know I can't
my witness needs someone that favours their mind before their heart
And my love you're the complete opposite of what I am looking for
your heart has control over you and my blessing won't help you change it "

Athena then left on her way and without my notice, the moments I thought were minutes turned out to be years
I grew old on a journey of me trying to find myself
I had nothing at the end
not one of my wishes was granted

but instead, Oizys came, standing behind me she warped her hands around me hugging me. The world was silent and I felt a sudden emptiness in my chest
I couldn't understand the meaning behind her action was it out of sympathy or love
But it didn't take me so long to know as she pressed her clutches inside my chest and through my heart making it bleed uncontrollably
I yelled in pain trying to escape her embrace but she squeezed her grip even harder I cried and cried
Nothing seemed to stop her
  And from extreme agony to a massive void
  A void that made blinded
  That made me believe oizys was my only partner
Arias was raging inside my veins
And my breath was getting tighter and tighter
And like that
  The sunflower changed to be a Purple Hyacinth beautiful yet sad

Shall the day come that her sadness fades away and her smile returns?