"You Really Screwed Up This Time, Carver..." - Eddie Munson x Y/N Story

18. "Ohh... Fuck!"

TW - Swearing

After a terrible nights sleep at Steves I woke up not feeling particularly ready for this exam. It was no fault of Steves or his house, I was just unsettled. It was hard to sleep without thinking about Eddie and Jellybean, and whether or not I was about to lose him and our future together. I peeled myself out of bed and got showered, the water running down my aching body felt so good and was really something I needed right now. I grabbed my backpack and went downstairs to find Steve making breakfast, he turned when he heard me pulling out a chair at the breakfast bar, a sympathetic smile adorned his face. "Morning, momma... pancakes? Good fuel for test taking!" he smirked as he slid a glass of orange juice and plate of pancakes across the counter for me, I nodded and lightly chuckled at the domesticated side of Steve I'd only ever heard about.

"So... he called here last night. Wanted to know if you were here..." I looked up from my plate and waited to hear if Eddie was worried or upset, or if it was just to alleviate his guilty conscience. "He sounded broken... in bad shape. I told him you'd been crying and fallen asleep." I was a little relieved to hear that he was upset, which felt wrong but it showed he really did care. "You gonna talk to him today?" Steve asked, sipping at his own cup of coffee,
"I- I don't know, Steve... right now I just wanna pass this fucking exam." I replied, I didn't want to be distracted any more than I already was right now.

My breakfast must have sat wrong in my stomach as I kept feeling stomach aches all the way to school, Steve offered to drive me as he had the day off work. As I got out of Steve's car at school I felt a sharp pain in my back as I stood up, I always get back pain at the moment but this was different... I couldn't breathe at how badly it hurt. "You okay?" Steve asked, noticing my grimaced face, I took a deep breath to compose myself before I answered.
"Yeah, just aching a lot at the moment. I'm fine." I lied, before thanking him for the ride and heading inside. As I got to the hall entrance, I saw Eddie chatting with Robin and Nancy, both of which were also taking the same exam shortly. He glanced past Nancys shoulder, sending me a sympathetic smile. I could see how sad he was, I wanted to run over to him and hold him tightly, but I needed it focus. He excused himself from Nancy and Robin and started walking towards me, I didn't really want to do this right now, but it didn't look like I had a choice.

"Y/N... H-how are you feeling?" he asked, reaching out and stroking my cheek, I wanted to melt into his touch right there and then, but I couldn't, I had to be sure we were meant to be together and not just because of the baby. I pulled my face away from his hand, placing my hands into my pockets,
"Fine. We're fine. How're you?" I said as I placed my hands onto my stomach, my tone flat, much like Eddie's the day he asked me to Benny's over the Walkie.
"Uhh, I'm okay, I guess. I miss you though, both of you..." he looked down at his feet, lightly scuffing his sneakers on the tiled floor, "Y/N... I'm so sorry. I never meant it the way it came out, and I do love you, constantly." he said, his voice starting to crack toward the end, his eyes glossy like he was about to cry.
"Ed's... can-can we not do this now? We'll talk, but... but after this, okay?" I asked, knowing I needed to concentrate right now. If Eddie and I were beyond repair, then I needed to give Jellybean and I the best chance at a good future. I lightly waved and smiled before going into the hall and finding my seat.

As I sat down I felt that aching feeling in my stomach again, the back pain too. It felt like someone was tightening a belt around the middle of my stomach and pulling hard. I breathed through it until it subsided, I must've eaten too many pancakes this morning. We were seated alphabetically, so I glanced to my left as saw Jason taking his seat beside me. He turned and smiled at me, reaching his hand out and taking hold of mine, "Good luck, loser!" he whispered with a wink and a grin,
"Good luck, jackass." I retorted, chuckling lightly. I really missed Jason, he's going off to college next year on a Basketball scholarship. I'm so proud of him, but it means he'll be going away just like I did. I don't want to lose him again, I just can't. He's one of the few things I felt like I had left... now I'm not sure what I've got, except for Jellybean. As I let go of Jason's hand, Eddie walked past my seat, dropping a small ball of paper onto my desk as he continued walking. I picked up the ball and opened it up, I wanted to cry at what he'd written.