somebody that i used to know // .deo

3 - hope

-addicted to a certain kind of sadness-

Y/N's PoV:
After graduating things just really went downhill. I try to forget. because thats the only thing im good at. Running away from my feelings.

I can never face myself alone. I cower in the thought of me being alone, i always need some aid. Well, for my sake that aid is i guess "faded" but. Thats okay. Everything happens for a reason. Im sure something 'good' will happen in return. Right?

Dr, connors or Connor as i call him took care of me. He said he had a gut feeling to take care of someone like me. He had a picture of a seems like a child? Where he said.

"Thats my kid. His names leon, and damn do i miss him."

He was chill. Nothing weird for that matter, of course he isnt weird what was i thinking?

as time went on i began to trust him. Leaving the past, which felt nice. This doesnt happen usually in the real world. If your alone then good luck tryna find some hope in your life because noone will help ya. Sad reality and im really lucky that i get to have some hope in living with someone.

"What college ya wanna go to?" Connors asked baking bread, he loves baking. Thinking, i forgot about college..reminded me of jenna once again. "I dont..know." connors laughed and said "ya dont know?! hahahah, when i was yo' age i had a plan for my life. Become a doctor! How about study medical? Ya mother...said that you were intrested in becomin' a doctor." Connors offered.

Well yeah, my dream was to become a doctor. But i knew i wasnt settlin in, my mother didnt really have a financial stable job so i picked a more easier dream more like a "ill-settle-for-this job."

With connors, i may have a chance..to become- a doctor, "you'd do that for me?" Y/n asked sitting down ready to eat connor's bread. "Sure, you might aswell be my own son now. Got a girlfriend yet?" Connors asked.

". . . No? But i liked- platonically..a girl i knew." Y/n said, and continued

Me and her well, are best friends
Atleast before..we met in grade 4 i think? Im not sure. But oh i was lucky when i met her, she was a funny person, someone i could rely on. We graduated to highschool tongether, But about two weeks before graduating to college she started ignoring me. I didnt know why, she kept uhm. Seeing a guy that i pretty much didnt like, which lead to me being jealous.

"Yeesh kid, ya really don't know why she ignored ya?" "No?" I cant think of a reason why she would ignore me.
"hahahahah, lets say its emotional. My wifey was like that." Connors said. I wasnt really good at picking up at peoples feelings, so i sometimes ignore them by accident

"Ill enroll ya to medical school, just ask me if ya need help. Just take medical school seriously its real hell."

-gave me some hope-