Snowdrop (PJS)

00: Prologue

It's been weeks since Enhypen's debut, Jay has been busy lately, well I can't blame him though it's his dream to become an idol and he did, I'm so proud of him. Like my promise that I will be there through his journey, I will always support him "I have to do this I'm sorry Jay", I sighed as I dialled his number

Jay</33: hey, I miss you.

                                                                                                                                          Love❤: I miss you too silly

Jay</33: why'd you call by the way?

Love❤: uh I was wondering are
you free tomorrow? Can we meet?

Jay</33: no I'm busy tomorrow, but, I'm never too busy for you. Where do you want to meet?

I couldn't help but smile hearing him say that.

Love❤: my penthouse tomorrow?

Jay</33: sure tomorrow it is, bye I love you

Love❤: love you too bye

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I was in the kitchen when I heard the doorbell ring...it must be him, opened the door and he suddenly hugged me i hugged him back for a mare second
"come in," I said as he obeyed.

"So why do you want to see me?" he asked with curiosity, "uhh I w-want to tell you something...." I said stuttering
"hey something wrong come on tell me what is it?" he asked i could see the worry in his eyes,

"J-jay" I started to cry, no no I can't do this 'but I have to for his sake I have to', I said to myself he's just looking at me waiting for an answer, I sighed heavily "I want to break up with you, we should break up let's end this," I said as heavy tears flow, I can see tears forming in his eyes, "why did I do s-something wrong?" he asked as he finally let his tears flow, I gave him a 'No' look "Then why? Love please tell me, we'll fix this ok? you don't love me anymore?" he said as he held my hands lightly griping on them,

"you didn't do anything wrong it's me, Jay, me, I want to break up with you not because I don't love you, it's because I don't want to be a distraction to you, all you ever dreamt is to be an idol look at you now you're an idol, I'm happy for you, of course, I'm more than proud but I think I will only distract you, I also don't want you to have dating sandals, you know that this career that you chose you'll have to keep many secrets, it'll only ruin your image if people will know that we're dating I don't want to cause you trouble, I love you, Jay, I swear I do from the very start till the end I'll love you always remember that," I said as my tears flow endlessly.

"Gyeoul... Love we can do this, I will give you space but let's not break up, please. We'll solve this problem, break up isn't the answer Gyeoul just please stay", he said begging me not to leave him " I'm sorry, sorry, I'm so sorry Jay" is the only thing I can say.

"What about your promise? You're going to break it?" he asked looking at me straight in the eye, "No, no Jay I won't break it, even if we're not together anymore I'd still support you, I will be there through your journey no matter what".

"So you really want us to end huh? seems like nothing can stop you. Fine then if that's what you want, it's hard for me to let you go we've been together for three years Gyeoul... But I respect your decision". I looked at his eyes tears flowing down from his now red swollen eyes, the pain was so visible nothing else but pain.

"I'm sorry Jay", I uttered as he looked at me, he then gave me a soft smile tho I knew he was just faking it, of course, he was did I expect him to smile at me after I hurt him? "There's nothing to be sorry love, I love you Gyeoul". He said as he opened the door and went out "I love you too..."

Now that he's gone, I broke down on my sofa I know it's my fault. I was weak, I was scared of the consequences if I didn't follow Mom and, we continued dating. But what if he's right? What if we just solve this problem rather than breaking up? I cried endlessly like there was no tomorrow. Guilt and conscience ate me, why do I have to be so weak and, fragile?

I've pleased many people for, far too long. It's time to stop being a shitty people pleaser and, grow, I never really realize it. Until now.

Be the flower that blooms in the cold.