Suicide Stories

Amanda Todd

hello!

I've decided to tell you about my never ending story

in 7th grade I would go with friends on webcam

meet and talk to new people.

then got called stunning, beautiful, perfect, etc...

then wanted me to flash...

so I did....
1 year later.....

I got a msg on facebook

from him...don't know how he knew me..

it said...
if you don't put on a show for me I will send ur boobs

he knew my address, school, relatives, friends family names.

Christmas break...

knock at my door at 4am...

it was the police...my photo was sent to everyone

I then got really sick and got...

anxiety, major depression and panic disorder

I then moved and got into drugs & alcohol....

my anxiety got worse...couldn't go out

a year past and the guy came back with my new list of friends and school. but made a facebook page

my boobs were his profile pic...

cried every night, lost all my friends and respect people had for me...again...

then nobody liked me

name calling, judged...

I can never get that photo back

it's out there forever...

I started cutting...

I promised myself never again...

didn't have any friends and I sat at lunch alone

so I moved schools again....

everything was better even though I sat still alone

at lunch in the library everyday...

after a month later I started talking to and old guy friend

we back and fourth texted and he started to say he...liked me...led me on...he had a girlfriend...

then he said
come over my gf's on vacation

so I did...huge mistake....

he hooked up with me....

I thought he liked me....

1 week later I get a text
get out of your school...

his girlfriend and 15 others came including himself...

the girl and 2 others just said
look around nobody likes you.

in front of my new school (50) people...

a guy then yelled
just punch her already

so she did...she threw me to the ground and punched me several times

kids filmed it. I was all alone and left on the ground.

I felt like a joke in this world...I thought nobody deserves this :/

I was alone..I lied and said it was my fault and my idea

I didn't want him getting hurt, I thought he really liked me

but he just wanted the sex...someone yelled
punch her already

teachers ran over but I just went and laid in a ditch and my dad found me..

I wanted to die so bad...when he brought me home I drank bleach...

it killed me inside and I thought I was gonna actually die.

ambulance came and brought me to the hospital and flushed me.

after I got home all I saw was on facebook
-she deserved it, did you wash the mud out of your hair? -I hope she's dead

nobody cared...I moved away to another city to my mom's.

another school...I didn't wanna press charges because I wanted to move on

6 months has gone by...people are posting pics of bleach, Clorox and ditches

tagging me...I was doing a lot better too...they said..
she should try a different bleach. I hope she dies this time and isn't so stupid.

they said
I hope she sees this and kills herself..

why do I get this? I messed up but why follow me?

I left your guys' city. I'm constantly crying now..

everyday I think, why am I still here?

my anxiety is horrible now..never went out this summer.

all from my past..life's never getting better..can't go to school

meet or be with people...constantly cutting. I'm really depressed.

I'm on antidepressants now and counseling and a month ago this summer I overdosed...

in hospital for 2 days...

I'm stuck...whats left of me now...nothing stops

I have nobody...
I need someone ):

my name is Amanda Todd...

*

not too long after this, she killed herself. she was strong for a long time, but she couldn't take it anymore.

so to all those dicks who hurt her; I hope you realize that what you did was terrible.