he was my dream, and we were his

Chapter 11: the word pregnant written very clearly

the fact Ellis was nearly 6 months old was shocking, you and harry were out in London getting the last few bits for his party tonight, luckily it was Wednesday which meant jack had Ellis and you and mason could spend all night out. walking around London was starting to make you light headed to the point you had to stop at a Starbucks just so you could throw up in the rest room. it wasnt until harry made a joke that you realised what the issue could potentially be. eventually  you found a supermarket just off oxford street and sent harry in to subtlety buy you a test. you and tom decided to stop and grab some food whilst you waited for mason to pick you both up. harry looked at you "come on Stella, your my best friend I can tell when somethings bothering you and I'm guessing it something to do with that" he nodded his head in the direction of your bag. you sighed tearing up. "I didn't want to do this again, I'm not ready. its been six months harry he hasn't even meet all our friends yet he doesn't even know what I'm really like yet and I could just be having a baby with him" harry nodded allowing you to carry on. "trust me its not because i dont want to have kids or a life with him because I really really do but I raised one new-born on my own whilst working and it was the hardest thing ive ever done i cant do it alone with 2" that was when harry interrupted you " but Stella your not alone he was there for you when it wasnt even his baby imagine when its his" that was when u got the text that mason had just parked the car and him asking you to order him a drink that was when both you and harry agreed not to say anything to mason until you had taken the test.

trying to figure when you could have actually gotten pregnant, and it must've been the work you left your pill at home and travelled up to saint Georges park. after 35 minutes sat on the bathroom floor contemplating life, so you pulled yourself together pissed on the stick, placed it in your tampon box, pulled out phone and added house and car shopping to your to do list. mason walked into the bathroom and stood against the counter watching you curl your hair and discussing his day at training with you, in that moment you were so grateful just the fact mason was stood Infront of you without a shirt on was enough to distract you from everything else. last time you were in this situation all you could about for the whole 3 minutes was what was on that test, this time you didn't even want to think about it. after an hour of very slowly doing your hair and very slowly doing your makeup you decided you finally had to look.

you slowly opened the draw listening to masons movements around the kitchen and his conversation, you pulled the test from the box and looked on the word pregnant written very clearly across the display screen. you heart sunk, not expecting it knocked you clean off your feet. before you could even completely understand what had just happened harry knocked on the door telling you the car would be here in ten, so you slotted the test back into the box and closed the door attempting to hid the problem until tomorrow. you walked out off the bathroom and sat down next to mason on the sofa to put on you heels, mason lifted the champagne bottle asking you weather you wanted a glass, then you realised. "no thanks babe I cant, I haven't pumped enough milk for Ellis so I cant pump and dump but will you get me a can of coke from the fridge please" as mason stood up and walked up to the fridge harry sat down next to you and squeezed your hand.

the first wave of official morning sickness hit as soon as you sat next mason in the car on the way to toms birthday party. the rest of the night dragged watching everyone lese drink and dance whilst you stood in the corner feeling sick and waiting to go home. after 20 minutes locked in a bathroom you finally emerged attempting  find mason and book an uber home, you had the uber app open on your phone with the closet one being 4 minutes away. when you came round the corner you saw mason stood in the  corner sat next to some random girl showing off his tattoo. something you over reacted, why was he sat with other girls showing off a tattoo for a baby that wasnt even his. it was like seeing that confirmed every worry you had, mason was only in it because he wanted his own baby and once he realised how difficult it is he would leave and you would be alone. you booked the uber and told harry to let mason know you didn't feel well and went home. 

around two hours later you just felt mason crawl in bed next you, he didn't even notice you were still awake so he just pulled you closer to him and kissed the top of head and whispered "I love you so much you would never understand" you just smiled realising everything would be  perfect and as long as you would go to bed every night with mason like this you would do anything and as long as you had him you could do anything.