♡Never Felt This Way♡ •Bruce Yamada x Reader•

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     "Y/n?" I heard someone say. I snapped out of it. "What?" I looked at Billy. "I asked if you were ready, are you? You zoned out." Oh I was just day dreaming? "Yeah sorry." He grabbed my arm and walked me out the door. I walked back to the table and sat down. "Y/n I'm so sorry I understand if your mad." I reassured him. "It's fine Bruce, Billy told me everything it's okay." He smiled and nodded. We finished our food as we laughed and talked. Until it was time to go. It was still raining and I was wearing a short sleeved shirt. I'm so stupid. Bruce took off his hoodie. "Here, I don't get cold easily." He handed it to me. "Bruce, you already gave me a hoodie before I'm fine." He pushed it into me. "Please I insist." I rolled my eyes and put it on. It smelled like his cologne. It gave a comforting smell to me. He hopped on his bike as I got on behind. He rode over puddles as it splashed in his hair and face. We reached my house. "I guess this is goodbye." I said as I walked away. "Wait Y/n I almost forgot." He dropped his bike and walked up to me. "Turn around." I faced my back towards him as he put a necklace on me. "What's this for?" I asked as I faced him. "To let you know that I'll always care for you and I'm here forever." I smiled. "Bruce," I said as I hugged him. He hugged back as I buried my face into his chest. I looked up at him as I moved hair out of his face. "I care about you a lot Yamada, I can't ever imagine losing you again. Friends?" He smiled. "Sure." I smiled and walked into my house. I went straight to the phone and called Donna to tell her what happened. "Hey Donna wanna come over? I NEED to tell you what happened with Bruce" She answered. "Yes please! Actually wanna hang out with me and Finn?" I smiled, said yes and hung up.

Time skip!

   We went to the park and we were laying down. Donna and Finney were flirting and leaving me out. I wasn't mad it's just always been us three. I've always included both of them in everything we do. I mean I know they're dating and they'd like to be together but it just didn't feel right. I was getting bored as they were giggling together. "Hey, Donna I thought you wanted to hear what happened today?" I tried to have a conversation going actually including me. "Um" all she said and went back with whatever Finn was doing. Wow. I never thought Donna would ever leave someone out. Even me. My two best friends leaving me for eachother. I stood up and left. I hate third wheeling them. I walked in my house. "Y/n come sit down next to Vance." My dad said. I was confused and sat down. "Are we in trouble?" Vance asked. "You guys aren't." Dad answered. We looked at eachother confused. "Your mom, how do I say this." He paused for a moment. "She is in a coma. Don't ask how I don't even know. What i do know is she might not ever wake up. Not in atleast a few weeks maybe months I dont know." I was shocked. I went to my room crying. First Donna and Finney leaving me now mom? Who do I have anymore? My mom is practically dead. And no one can do anything about it. My only sources of happiness are gone. I cried myself to sleep.

  I stayed in my room for the next week. I came out only to pee or grab a snack. One day Vance came in. "Your friends are coming over." I nodded. Donna and Finney walked in laughing with eachother. When he meant come over I thought in the next 10 minutes. "Hey Y/n do you want tell me about Bruce still?" I shrugged. I only told her the main stuff. I didn't tell her what happened in the bathroom. She smiled and Finney nodded. As they kept only talking to eachother. Can they really not tell that I'm not okay? Do they even like me anymore? I feel like they think I'm annoying and too much. "Can you guys leave?" They looked confused and did so. I just cried when they left.

This next paragraph involves sh just a fair warning.

    I looked into my backpack and grapped a pencil sharpener. I found a bobby pin and used it to pop open the screws. I took out the blades and took a good look at them. I took off my pants in which I was only wearing panties and a Bruce's hoodie. I held the blade where the sharp side was close to my skin. I drew a line into my inner thigh. I started crying even more thinking more and more of what happened. I kept slicing into my thigh getting more and more aggressive. I paused. I took a good look at what I've done. Wow. What the hell is wrong with me? Why would I do THIS? I'm being dramatic. I'm over thinking. The more I think the more I regret and guilt I felt. How am I gonna hide this? It's summer everyone wears shorts. I heard a knock on my door. Shit shit shit. I hid the blades in my hands and put a blanket over my legs. "Come in!" I yelled Vance came in. "Are you okay?" He closed my door. And sat next to me. "Why are you on the floor?" I shrugged. He put the blanket over him and layed down. My cuts are so noticeable right now. I put my arms over my legs trying to hide them. "Y/n?" I looked at him. "Yeah?" I was shaking. "Show me your leg." My face was red from nervousness. I showed him. "Your other leg." I rolled my eyes. He took my hands off my leg. I looked away to scared to look at him. I felt my eyes getting wet. "Oh Y/n.." He said. I couldn't anymore. "Vance please, I had to you don't get it." He looked at me. "You didn't have to." He was right. "Y/n these are new." I looked at my thigh. I dropped the blades. "There Vance. Is that what you want?" I was crying at this point. "I want you to talk to someone." Why was he so calm? "I'm talking to you genius!" I got up. "Y/n You know what I mean." I opened my door. "Get out." He walked away. "You need to talk to someone." He said as he went into his room. Asshole.