"I'm Just Kidding"

How it started

   I guess it started in 5th grade. The insults hidden behind giggles and the "I'm just kidding". But it wasn't until 9th grade that I realized they weren't and never were "just kidding". By the time I realized, it was already too late. They managed to get into my head and made me question and dislike everything about myself. The worst part is I didn't know how to leave. Not knowing is the one thing I am sure that everyone fears at least a little bit. I knew I should have at least tried to leave...

...But I didn't

   I didn't try because I was scared. I was scared of being alone