PLZ HELP ME

Plz help ill give u money

Ok so i read this back in like 2018 and i just randomly remembered it but i need to re read it, it was so good
It's namjoon x taehyung it's like little joon and tae is like in a gang or mafia but theres like a chapter where namjoon goes to the store and he wears these noise canceling headphones and he picks up a book that has like noises and he gets scared cause of trauma. There's also a chapter where it explains how they met and how joon met tae in an alleyway where tae was injured and joon was wearing like pastels and tae like helped him escape the abusive place he was in. I remember it being called something like softly sweetheart or some things like that. it's completed btw
i feel like the author deleted it but if someone can just link me it, i can die happily :D