she is the epitome of nothing

6

billie had been in the cell for just over 24hours.

she had been crying the whole time, the urges to hurt herself and drink were too much to handle that she started banging her head off the wall.

officer lea had to come in and calm her down quite a few times. billie's cheeks were tear stained and she looked like she had just been dragged through hell and back.

"time for your trial" officer lea says as she handcuffs billie and leads her to the court room.

"you'll win don't worry, i partnered up with your family" she reassures billie, "it's so stupid!" billie cries, "i know i know, you need to calm down before you go in there"

billie calms down and they walk into the court room, the eyes of her classmates, teachers and family made her nervous.

sandra was stood with a smirk on her face, what did billie do wrong? she was just trying to survive.

(i don't know how court cases go so pls bare with me)

"this is the trial between sandra jones and billie o'connell" the judge starts.

billie sits there with her head down shaking. the fact her classmates and teachers were here made her even more nervous.

"sandra jones i'd like to start with you, when did this occur?" the judge asked, sandra started making up a bunch of lies. "friday, ms o'connell came into her therapy session as usual and everything was going fine-"

"i asked when it occurred. what do you claim happened?" the judge interrupts.

billie is sat in anger with officer lea and lawyers next to her due to the lies coming out of sandra's mouth.

"i asked ms o'connell a question, in which i cant remember and she didn't like it. so she got up and yelled at me before punching me and stealing my bag before she left" sandra lied.

"you took photos of the bruising on your face after she punched you correct?"

"correct"

"i'd like to show exhibit 1 please" the judge asks.

"so ms jones, it looks like your eye was bruised. where is that bruising now?" the judge speculated.

sandra stuttered before answering, "i- it's makeup, i have makeup on so obviously the bruising is covered"

"alright, ms jones please take a seat" the judge says.

"you'll be okay" officer lea says to billie.

"ms o'connell to the stand" billie lets out a breath before walking up to the stand.

"so ms o'connell, what do you recall from friday?" the judge asks her.

you'll be okay

officer lea's voice repeated in billies head.

"i obviously went to my therapy session that day and it was going okay until i lashed out. i do admit to yelling at her but in no way did i put my hands on ms jones nor did i steal her handbag" billie says.

"but ms jones has proof of the bruise after you punched her? that makes no sense" the judge says.

the amount of rage built up inside officer lea and billie's family was almost unbearable. billie was shaking so badly as she looked up to see everyone's eyes on her.

"i know, it doesn't make any sense. is there security camera footage we can look at?" billie suggested, the judge nodded.

"we have no had time to over look this footage, are you okay with it behind shown?" the judge asks billie, she nods in response and the footage plays.

"i don't want or need your fucking help!"

billies voice can be heard, then, as clear as day the footage shows that billie didn't touch nor take any of ms jones belongings.

sandra's face went bright red whilst a small smile tugged at billie's lips, "well i guess that closes the case. ms o'connell you are released and have a good day" the judge smiles.

everyone cheered as sandra and her team stormed away. for the first time in a while billie felt a little okay, she was relieved.

-

"how did all my classmates and teachers know?" billie questioned her mom as they got back home.

her mom shrugs as she takes off her shoes.

billie immediately goes upstairs and locks herself back in her room, a wave of sadness hit her.

she quickly grabbed the alcohol sitting next to her bed and downed it, grabbing her blade she made deep deep slits in her wrist.

feeling relief.

billie quickly unlocked her phone after charging it, it had been dead for ages.

a text from drew came up.

drew

hi bil
i just want to say this.
i really don't think we should be friends anymore, i'm sorry but i'm struggling really bad with my mental health right now and trying to help you and seeing you the way you are makes me feel worse. it breaks my heart everytime i see you. so i just really can't be friends with you right now, we both should work on ourselves and become better versions of ourselves.
i'm trying to put this in the nicest way possible, i'm so sorry billie but it's best for both of us right now.
i love you so much.
please be good to urself.

drew? what?
please don't
i need you
we can help eachother
please drew you're the only person i can trust
you're the only person that's ever cared

i'm sorry billie
its really just best if we focus on ourselves
i spend countless nights worrying about you
wether you're dead or not
i love you billie but we can't be friends right now

i'll get better
please don't leave me drew
not delivered

drew?
not delivered

-

billie threw her phone so hard against the wall it smashed everywhere.

she doesn't understand why drew done that, drew promised to be by her side every step of the way.

billie chugged down the alcohol and cut a deep cut vertically down her wrist.

she's losing hope.

i'm loosing hope
i'm loosing time
everyone's left me
even drew
why me?
i cant do this anymore
this isn't drew's fault
it's mine
i'm such a fuck up
i fuck up everything
tomorrow.
- bil.

she closed her notebook and layed for the rest of the night crying.

her wrists were bloody, bleeding and stingy. her head was spinning, she was that drunk she couldn't tell where she was. she couldn't even think straight.

this is her downfall.

this is the end of billie o'connell.

(a/n)

next chapter is last chapter

told y'all it's just a short sad story

have a good day/night

- taylor <3