Hey, Im Lazuli. I am the only child of my parents. My name Lazuli came from the word "Lapis Lazuli" which refers to a gemstone. My ancestors were unsure about my name but they knew I would be a change in my family's generations. Sure, I am the only child, but I can tell you, my life wasn't easy for me or anyone in my opinion. I've always felt invisible, ignored and forgotten. I felt locked up in a space in my mind where I always think that people hate me or I just don't stand out too much. I've always felt confused, standing in the middle of those two thoughts thinking what is my problem? Why am I ignored? I never felt free from all my thoughts. I was always thinking, infact overthinking. Balloons. The only thing that could relieve me. Watching them gaze around the skies, watching them float away as I let go of the string. It sure does remind me of my mom. She would always give me balloons and she would tell her story when she was kid. I know she would still be doing that, only, she went missing a few years ago..
Few years ago before Lazuli's Mother passed away:
Hey Ma..? Yes sweetheart? Can you please tell me more of your stories? Sure hon, anything for you. When I was a kid, masmakulit pa ako sayo. Well, I've grown up and learned."Ma! I will always be makulit! I will never grow up from being makulit!" Haha, Lazuli, promise me that you will keep on being happy ah.."why po?" Things may or will be complicated when you grow up. So please, listen to me because Im preparing you. "Ma, Immmmmmmmmmm so hungry na poooo" Oh no! Let's go home na, you can bring the balloon."I'll just let it go ma."
Yum! Sarap po ma! Buti naman."Ma? Where is my dad, do I have a dad? Nak, tulog ka na."Ok po."
Present:
From that day, I knew she was hiding something from me. I was always to listening her conversations on her phone, she would lock herself in the bathroom so I couldn't here it. I heard fighting, my name and money problems. I was sure that was my Father. I asked mom who that was on the phone, she said it's her manager, I knew it wasn't. Then everyday this guy would call my Mother, she was crying. I tried making money by selling my stuff and I just got made fun of for being poor and for having a single mother. I never told her though since I didn't want her to worry about me. Weeks turned to years. I was 11. I woke to find a note on the counter, "I will be back, Love Ma" I broke into tears, she left me an envelope full of money, 60k. She told me to use them for my school, bills and food. Good thing she taught me to save money and save electricity. I was mad for her leaving me, abandoned. But I was thankfull for her making me aware and prepared that she might leave me for an unknown reason. 10 years later I'm 20 and it is now the 2014.
"I have to do something, I can't just rome around and do nothing." "I have to find her to kill my curiosity."
I went to the dollar store to get some balloons. I had an idea. I could blow them up and set them free and ask wind to blow it to the way my mother went.
16 years ago at the beach close to their house:
"Hahaha! Ma! Can I go here everyday?? I like the wind here! It is so windy, it's perfect!" "Ok fine but only after you finish your homework." "Yayyy! Thank you ma!"
Present:
I always went there until now, I realized the I had a connection with a wind. I felt it. I asked the wind a favor to do my plan and blow it, and it did. It led me to Paris.
"Hey um, Greetings! Does anyone here know Linda Starr?" "No sorry." Hold on." Ma?
Is that you? "L-azuli nak? Ma! Bakit mo ako iniwan!? Naghirap ako! "Nak, sorry na."
Seriously ma!? Sa lahat ng aking pinagdaan, sorry lang talaga ang sasabihin mo?!
Teka ma, sino yan? "Siya ang..tatay mo, si Norman." Ahh, so iniwan mo ko para sa tatay kong wala naman sa buong buhay ko?!
Present:
I was raging in anger that day only to realize the my father has forced her to forget me.
In Lazuli's Mother's house without the Father:
Ma, bakit ka pumayag?! Tinakot niya ko napapataying niya ako at ikaw kaya, pumayag nalang dahil ayaw kitang nakikitang nasasaktan. Ma...salamat po. Hindi ko inakala na sinasaktan ka rin po niya. Ok lang nak, I deserve this for leaving you when you were 11. Kahit na ma. Ma I know you left for a good reason.
Present:
We had to get Father arrested and he turned out to be a robber, black mailer and a murderer. We decided that we will move to paris and we released a few balloons in our old hometown as a farewell.
Love you Ma...<3
The end of episode 1!
Thank you for reading this far!
Its not much but dont worry! I will be making more!!
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By:Asnodprheiae<3
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