Where'd She Go?

Introduction

"It's difficult to live your life when you have eyes around you. It feels like you are trapped in a see through vortex and you are displayed to the whole world. So what you do, who you see is being watched.
In my case my boyfriend was constantly being watched. His life was flipped around when joined the band. I don't know what it was but he became more compassionate. More comprehensive and caring. I thought the change would ruin his kind image.
He would be kind to anyone .When he would walk in the room all eyes were on him and he would shake everyone's hand. He was the kindest person I knew.
But sometimes being too kind can lead to people hating you.
He would call me around 2 in the morning because he couldn't sleep. He would make me go over to the country he was in so I could lay in bed with him because he was scared that someone would take me away.
The worst is that.......I never did anything about it. I never told anyone what he was going through, what we were going through. It feels like I'm the one who is guilty. I loved him so much and knowing that he's gone is something I can never, ever forgive myself for."