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Moving on. Or at least trying to.

******** This is my newest book. That honestly i feel really proud of it already and its just starting. I want to say thanks to my girl Sam for helping me to with this and a shoutout to my #IndecisiveSquad Those girls are my family, idk what I would do without them.

Fair warning this book is rated Mature, for the reason being that there will be strong language, violent descriptions/violent scenes and there will be brief sexual content but this isn't really focused on that, I honestly hope that you guys like this book, be prepared for the crazy feels of life that will hit you like a truck. ********

Chapter 1

" Seconds, everything happens so quickly, that minutes feel like seconds. Time is a funny thing, they say every wound will heal....with time. To be completely honest I don't think that my wounds will ever completely heal. There is just too much damage done to be completely patched up, I can't forgive what happened in my past, I know they say forgive and forget but I just can't let it go. There is nothing that can make me forgive what that one person did, that took away my ability to let someone in. "

That is what I thought to myself every night, for the past 13 years of my life. I am 19 years old and my name is Jessi. Life right now couldn't be any better, I have friends who love me that are always there for me. Except for the fact that they all live halfway across the country or the world for that matter. There are only 3 people in the whole world that know my secret and I plan on keeping it that way. Im just not ready to tell the other girls yet, maybe one day, but for now the secret stays hidden.

I left my apartment in Ohio today, because I knew it was time, time to move on, at least that what I told myself. I had always said I wanted to move to LA, so I was taking that step. I had worked soo many jobs just so I could save up money to be able to live there,which was very stressful, I might add. When I walked out of the house, I didn't even look back, I just kept on walking. I had my suitcase in hand and as I was about to step on the plane, I took a deep breath and then I walked on board. I found my seat which was a window seat, I was glad that there wasn't too many people on this flight.

I snuggled into my seat and I unlocked my iPhone 6 and I opened up my twitter. A smile formed on my face as I started typing a tweet " Hey #IndecisiveSquad Im moving to LA, I'm like legit on a plane right now. " I laughed as I closed my eyes for a moment then I heard my phone beep so I checked it. My friend Trang( Its pronounced Chang :P ) tweeted me back saying "OMG WTFHEWF @jessi_ribot SOO LUCKY!!" this made me giggle. I opened up my music and I put the playlist "Sleep Jams" on the first song that came on was " The Weight " by Shawn Mendes. I loved hearing his voice, it seriously helps to slowly but surely put the pieces of my heart back together again. Within the first chorus of the song, I was already dozing off, I could feel my eyelids getting heavy, and the sleep start to overcome my body.

**** Time-Skip****

I woke up to hear the captain saying " Hello flight 213. We will be arriving at the airport in just 5 short minutes. So please fasten your seat belts." I rubbed my eyes and I sat up straight in my chair, wow I can't believe I slept for the whole flight. I guess I was gonna need it if I wanted to get settled in quickly and still be able to enjoy my day. I quickly opened up twitter on my phone and I tweeted "Almost in LA, Can't wait to settle in :))!!" I shoved my phone in my pocket and I smiled like a little girl, then everyone onboard including me, started clapping as the plane had landed. It took about 8 minutes for the plane to reach the gate. I got up from where I was sitting and I grabbed my purse and my carry-on luggage and I walked off the plane.

I stood there and I was about to start walking when I looked in front of me and saw an all too familiar face. I Shook my head then I shouted without caring if anyone heard "HAILZ?!?!" The girl turned around and yelled back "JESSI?!" Within seconds we both dropped our stuff and ran, engulfing each other in the tightest bear hug ever. She said "what the fudge are you doing here? I thought you were in Ohio?" (Ayee s/o to Jacob) I laughed and said "well yeah but I left today and I came here. I have enough money to live here so why not?" A grin formed on her face, she said "where's your apartment?"

I bit my lip and said "okay before I say where, you have to promise you won't scream." She raised her eyebrows and said "Spill the beans jessi! I want to know already!!" I took a breath and said " My apartment is in the same building as Nash and Cam's! " She almost fainted and had a heart attack. "Oh wait till Trang finds out. She'll definitely want an autograph!" We both laughed until haylie broke the silence and said "Shit! We still haven't told the girls we are with each other?!" I giggled and said "How about sending them a selfie?" She said to me "I like the way you think bestie!" She pulled out her phone and snapped a selfie and captioned it with "Finally meeting my Internet bestie. @jessi_ribot :))!!!" Then she sent it to all our indecisive Squad girls.

"Hailz let's go to our new apartment!" She squealed and said "wait what your joking right? I'm gonna live with you in the same building as Cam and Nash.....what are we waiting for? Let's Go!" And with that I rented a range rover and we drove off to our apartment. About an hour later I had pulled into the parking garage and I parked the car on the fifth floor. Haylie said "Jessi we are here!!" We both laughed for about 5 minutes out of the sheer excitement for finally meeting each other and being here in LA. I pulled out my phone and I checked the time, it was only 12 in the afternoon we still had a whole day ahead of us. Thankfully, I had my stuff shipped to the apartment about a week ago and I payed the movers to set up the big stuff. Like the living room, and my room and the guest room.

We walked in and we're immediately amazed, we had such a freaking awesome apartment. I said to hailz "our rooms are upstairs, so let's head up there and unpack our things." We both ran up the stairs and picked our rooms. I quickly unpacked my boxes putting everything in its place, then I unpacked my clothes and put them away, we would for sure need to go shopping for some things. I walked over to Haylie's room and saw her at her desk spinning I'm her spinny office chair. I laughed and said "wow I didn't think I would ever be here, and now look, I'm with my amazing fabulous best friend, who has an insane obsession over glitter."

She made a heart with her hand and she laughed "Aww jess your the best! So what do we do first?" I sat there and scratched my head "yeah wow I didn't actually think about that. Okay um how about we go get some food?" Haylie jumped up excitedly and said "But instead of taking the car...." her voice trailed off as she walked over to one of her suitcases and she pulled out 2 penny boards. One was a bright green and covered in glitter that was obviously hers, the other one was a baby blue color then it has a floral print on in. My eyes widened "Hailz are you for real?! That's the penny board I've always wanted!!" I ran up to her and squeezed her "Thank you, thank you, thank you soo much!" She said your welcome then we heard heard a knocking at the door.

We both looked at each other and said I " who could that be? Nobody knows that we live here here yet?" My best friend shrugged her shoulders and said to me "well open it already I wanna know who's there." I silently laughed and said "But what if it's some weird pedo guy, and he's gonna murder us?" She covered her mouth trying to stifle a laugh then she spoke " gosh i love you jess, your so random." Then I shook my head and we both walked towards the door. I opened it and was face to face with someone I was beginning to think that I'd never see.

******cliffhanger (hides while you guys try to attack me) Sorry for the cliffhanger and sorry I didn't post yhis last night I literally was up till 3am writing this chapter then I never posted it because I fell asleep. TADA! HERE IT IS! Lol And I hope you guys enjoy it. The second chapter will be up in a couple of hours so get ready for it ;)

Don't forget.....I Love You Guys So much!!!! ♡♡♡♡******