Hermione's Desires

Yuletide

#15,835+words Edited 30/07/2023

Pairing: Thorfinn Rowle/Hermione Granger

A/N

Alright some of you may remember this story from before, well since I lost most of them I will be reposting them, so here is the first one....ENJOY :D

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Hermione POV

When the war was finally over, and after the funerals were done, the magical world slowly started healing, of course is wasn't an over night success, given that we had lost a number of talented magical children, my own healing had taken longer than others with my torture still giving me issues with my shaking hands and the constant need to check for exits wherever I went, it was worse in the muggle world as the population is larger than it is in magical Britain, but I wanted to be able to leave my home without the constant fear that someone was going to send a spell my way, just because of who I was or who my friends were, in the end I decided to return to Hogwarts to retake my seventh year even though it wasn't a popular decision with harry or ron, harry wanted us all together at the ministry and ron didn't want his girlfriend to be at Hogwarts when he wasn't there, I often wondered why he felt like that but I ignored it and just put it down that he was still healing over the death of Fred, I never thought it was something else entirely

When the day came for me to leave Hogwarts for the last and final time, I had mixed emotions over it, on one point I wanted to leave because even with being rebuilt I can still remember the bodies lined up in the great hall, and on the other was that I still had some good memories of Hogwarts, of laughing in the great hall with harry, ginny, luna and ron, it felt like I was finally leaving behind my childhood and then I was excited to finally move on with my life and start a new adventure as an adult, I went to work for the ministry, I thought this was my chance to help change the magical world for the better, but as time went by I noticed that things were not changing at all, if I came up with an idea that I thought it was a good one, it was dismissed, but then later on my ideas became real only problem was I was never given the credit for it, no that went to ron or harry, it was disheartening to find out that all my hard work and time it took to research everything was for nothing and no-matter what I said to harry or ron, they never bothered taking it serious

Harry I noticed kept on telling me that changes were happening just not where most people could see it, I knew he was mostly talking about the auror department that he and ron were working in, I knew there was lots of departments in the ministry that I didn't know anything about or had any knowledge if changes had already been made within them, but for them to steal my ideas and then claim them for themselves made me angry, I sighed as I looked over the little café I've been sitting in for the last few hours, feeling angry at myself for ignoring the little things that I had noticed, but just didn't feel right at the time, for all my smarts I couldn't notice the times that my so-called friends were playing me for a right idiot, and now I know the truth behind it all I felt defeated, I looked out of the café window and thought back to what I had overheard just this morning and wondered why I never noticed anything before

Flashback Start

I walked down the corridor towards harry's office to tell him and Ron that I was going to be working late this evening, smiling at the thought of the idiot that I've been friends with for so many years, when I suddenly heard Ron's voice coming from the break room that was just before their office -they share an office- "is mione still moaning about her ideas being stolen by us, harry" I stopped suddenly as I heard him ask that because his voice sounded amused "not lately, I think she's finally figured out that her ideas will always be credited to us, no-one would ever admit that a muggleborn had come up with such good ideas, unfortunately since she hasn't mentioned it, Kingsley has been on my back about getting more ideas from her but nothing I've tried has worked" Harry's voice rang out clearly {was that all I was, their way of climbing the corporal ladder, I stopped saying anything when my ideas suddenly became theirs because I was never happy with it and so decided to never mention them} I thought as I felt my heart break at what I was to them