she is the epitome of nothing

7.

dear finneas,

i don't know how to start this off.
i'm not really sorry for doing this as it was the right thing but part of me is sorry, i'm sorry that you've lost your favourite, hot, funny sister.
i really didn't know how to cope anymore, that whole situation with my old therapist really threw me to the edge and then loosing drew has tipped me over the edge.  please don't blame drew for this, it's really no where near her fault. i've been planning this for almost a month now.
everything's too difficult for me to continue, not like i was going to have a future anyways.
all i done was sit in my room and drink and cry.
your encouragement kept me going for a while and to be honest, you, mom and dad were the only people keeping me here with your support and advice. i simply just couldn't live like this anymore. i love you finny boy, please keep smiling and being yourself, don't let pain and my death change you. you're the best brother anyone could ever ask for.
- bil.

billie sat at her desk for hours writing her notes for everyone.

dear mom and dad,

thank you for supporting me and being the best parents anyone could ever ask for. you've gone above and beyond for finneas and i, sacrificing things just for our happiness. i'm so sorry that
i've failed at being who i was raised to be. i'm so sorry that sweet billie disappeared ages ago, i know you both longed for her to come back.
i really couldn't take the pain of living anymore.
i love you guys so much, thank you for always being there for me.
- bil.

she continued to write and write and write, until she finished her last one off with drew.

dear drew,

i know we aren't on speaking terms and i'm sorry it had to end like this, but i thought you would need an explanation too.
there really isn't one except the fact that i just couldn't hold on anymore.
please please please don't blame yourself for this, this is my fault.
it's my fault for letting myself get this bad to the point where the only way out is ending it.
you're my bestfriend and you have been since day one, please stay strong and keep smiling.
i love you drew.
- bil.

billie sealed the letters and gathered all her things before leaving her note for her mom and dad sitting on the kitchen table. she drove to finneas's house and posted his through his letter box.

at this point, her parents were already spam calling her as they had read the note left for them.

"please billie"

"please come home"

"you can get through this billie please don't do it"

message after message was coming through her phone but she chose to ignore them, finally she posted drews through her letter box.

finneas was also spam phoning/texting her. they were all worried sick and out on the look for her, but billies mind was too set to care.

after reaching the top of the very tall building billie let out a shaky breath.

she stood at the edge and looked at her surroundings.

she decided to send them all one last text.

'i love you so much. i'll always be here" the text read, she sent it to her mom and dad, finneas, claudia, drew and zoe. the only important people in her life.

she turned off her phone before smashing it to pieces on the roof.

"it's my time" she mumbled to herself with a small smile on her face.

the slight breeze blowing through her hair and mostly silence, as it was night comforted her.

billie took and step closer to the edge, before taking a deep breath.

she stepped forwards and flung herself off the roof, slight regret washed through her but she didn't care.

as she hit the ground, a rush of intense pain, unlike no other consumed her body.

screams could be heard, before everything went dark.

and that was the end of billie o'connell.

the end.