What's True Love?
Throughout my life I have never fallen in love with a boy but there is this one boy...
People don't get it
When I say I have a crush on you
I mean I have feeling for you
When I say I miss you
I mean I hate not seeing you
People judge me for saying how I feel
But they forget how it feels to like someone
I hate feeling this way
I hate how vulnerable I feel
I miss you
I miss you so much
I don't like feeling this way Because I know I don't mean anything to you
I'll never be what you dreamed of I would love to have just a chance with you
Just a chance to show you
Show you how much you mean to me
A chance to spoil you
Give you love
Be your best friend
That's all I want
But I get it
You don't always get what you want
People will never understand my feelings when I'm in love and even some people try to break me.
There is this one boy who is really in love with and just can't explain my feelings with anyone, and ahhhh when he looks at me I swear I can't breathe, just the way he makes me feel is so special and I don't ever want to lose that feeling.
His face
His smile
His eyes
His voice
HIM
That's all I ever wanted, is just for someone to love me back the same way I love them.
My mother has always told me that love comes and goes around but the right boy will come at the right time.
You see, it was December and we had a couple weeks before Christmas break. Honestly everything was going alright until I met this guy. He was my guy friend, friend. We got introduced to each other. He seemed ok to me but little could I see was a future between us. After a couple weeks we started talking everyday. On Christmas break we went on a date. It went very chill and good even though I was a little bit nervous, I still couldn't make my decision. Was this the right guy for me? I wasn't sure enough and I didn't want to tell any of my parents about any of this. I was scared they would just want me to focus on studying. That's all they ever wanted is for me to be successful in life. After a couple weeks later we made things kinda official we just put the label as dating, which we were both happy with. That's when I decided it was time to tell my parents. They were both in a good mood when I told them and they said it was fine and all but if we were to get more serious they would have to meet him and at this time I was a freshman and he was a sophomore. He really respected everything about me and that's when I really saw something in this boy who I have fallen in love with without even knowing. But there was a problem. This is what I have always been scared of: that this kinda stuff would separate us. I had this one friend that I have known my whole life and her parents were really close with mine. She joined the school a couple months later and that's when she became best friends with him. That's one thing that disappointed me but he wasn't aware that I didn't like it. Cuz I know the type of person she is. She is a selfish brat who is always jealous of me but I play nice with her and act like we're cool with each other. That's when she started to tell me lies and I didn't really know to believe her or not at this point. She said that my bf had been flirting with her and she even told me that he is so cute and when me and my bf were on ft she would text him and would want him to ft her instead and my bf would say what do you want me to do and I said it's your choice, the second he hanged up on me to ft her instead I already knew something was up between them because you can never be friends and do that kinds of things. After he ft me back and I covered my camera the whole time and barely talked to him, I put myself on mute and started to write a letter to him of how much I love him, and I started crying a little bit. He noticed and asked if everything was ok? I said yes but I lied. I was so freaking in love with this man but I don't think he felt the same way about me. From this all I could say is that no matter who it is no matter how many times they say I love you, you will never understand the full meaning of true love and I don't think that nobody has the real answer for that question. Maybe they felt it but let's be honest nobody knows what TRUE LOVE IS?
