I see you- "I see the love and your feelings and your soul and you mean everything to me."
You and Lo'ak have always had a special connection, and everyone is aware of it. You also clearly like eachother, but both of you doubt that the others feel the same. When you joined them on their travel to the water na'vis, you were quite nervous with what to expect.
"What if they find us?" You ask warily.
"Well then I will protect you." Lo'ak states.
You smile at his braveness, even though you and him both know that deep down he is just as scared. But Lo'ak loves when he gets a chance to act brave and fearless like his dad.
When you all arrived at the reefs, you were still kind of cautious, and Lo'ak saw this, so pulled you between him and Neteyam. You kept your head down, avoiding the eyes of the Metkayina. You looked away as Jake spoke to Tonowari and Ronal, and glanced at the water around you.
Thats when you spotted a girl emerging from the water. She seemed about your age, and was beautiful. Way prettier than you, you thought. You noticed how Neteyam and Lo'aks heads turned in the same direction, and seemed to linger on the same girl. Neteyam you didnt really care about looking, but you felt insecure as Lo'aks eyebrows ever so slightly raised as his eyes followed the girl, and she looked at him, too. You know you shouldnt feel this way, but you cant help it. For all you know, Lo'ak doesnt have any interest in you, not like you with him.
When she was introduced as Tonowari and Ronal's daughter, it made you feel even worse about yourself. You weren't anyone special back in the jungle, just a normal omatikaya na'vi. With Lo'ak being Jake's son, you felt worried that they would have stronger connections than you and him.
You were taken away from your thoughts by a tug on your arm, and snapped out of it to focus on Lo'ak infront of you.
"Y/n, come on, they are showing us our home. Are you okay?" He says, a hint of concern in his tone.
"Yeah yeah I'm fine, come on" you reply, going ahead with your hand still in his. Lo'ak wasnt fully convinced, but decided to drop it.
Once you had settled in to your home, you were all called to the water, to learn the ways of the Metkayina. You stayed beside Lo'ak, as you were lead to the rocks by the water, by Tsireya and her two brothers. You all sat in a circle, you securely sat between Neteyam and Lo'ak.
"You must learn to slow your breathing to be able to survive under the water."
She knelt infront of Lo'ak, and placed her hand on his lower abdomen.
"Breathe from here" she instructs
You know it is just their way of teaching, but you felt a wave of jealousy come over you. You werent the type to cause a scene, so you stayed sat down, quietly.
Once you all were able to slow your heart rate enough, you were lead to the water. Lo'ak had a sense of urgency about him as he went ahead with Tsireya, clearly going way too fast for him to handle so soon, and this made you feel deflated. You had only been there a matter of hours and already felt like Lo'ak had found someone over you. You didnt like feeling this way at all, and needed to get away from it. Neteyam, who was swimming beside you, noticed this, but before he was able to check, you spoke up.
"I dont feel all that well, I'm gonna go back." You say, which is clearly a lie.
Neteyam could tell this, and with a quick glance to Lo'ak and the others ahead, he knew why you felt that way. But he knew you were reserved, and wouldnt tell him the truth, so didn't want to push it.
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asks softly.
"No no its okay, you go on. Just tell the others I'll join them another day." You insist, and turn to swim back to shore before Neteyam could muster another word.
You were now sat down on the edge of your home dangling your feet in the water, splashing the surface with small glum kicks. Neytiri and Jake were with the girls exploring their new home and meeting the clan, so you were on your own.
That was until you heard footsteps.
"Y/n" you hear Lo'ak say as he spots you.
He sits down beside you, placing his feet in the water like you were, and shuffles up close.
"How come you didnt come with us into the sea? It was amazing!" Lo'ak says
"I uh, I didnt feel right," you said with your head down towards the water "Just wanted to be on my own"
"Are you okay? You have seemed quiet." He says, gently placing his hand on yours, "Have I done something?"
You look him in the eyes, his filled with concern, yours with longing.
"No, no, its just, its nothing." You say, returning your focus to the water.
"I know its not nothing y/n, your eyes tell me different." Lo'ak replies sincerely.
"I guess Im just worried," you begin.
"About what?" Lo'ak ponders, scooting even closer to you.
"That you'll forget about me."
"Wait- what? Why do you think that?" Lo'ak questions, worry filling him.
"Lo'ak, Ive seen the way you look at Tsireya, I mean, I get it, she's beautiful, shes talented, shes smart, shes-"
"Y/n, stop." Lo'ak says
You stop.
"Do you think I like Tsireya?" He asks, looking you deep into your eyes as you look up towards him.
"Well its kind of obvious" you painfully chuckle.
"Y/n, I dont like Tsireya."
You look at him confused, and he shakes his head with a laugh, looking down at his lap for a second.
"Y/n, its always been you." Lo'ak states. You are taken by surprise, and Lo'ak notices this. He grabs both your hands, and hold you close.
"Y/n, I see you."
