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Chapter Twenty : My Inexperience Is As Obvious As The Scarlet Letter

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Chapter Twenty : My Inexperience Is As Obvious As The Scarlet Letter

"No way,"

"Come on Tessie, you just need to try once. That's all I'm asking."

"It's too soon, I can't do it." My head hangs in defeat and I silently curse myself. Why do I have to be such a coward? It's not like he's asking me to something completely unheard of. People do it all the time; it's a staple when you're a teenager.

"You don't have to be scared. I'll help you through it and I'll make sure you have fun." He promises, his voice ringing with sincerity. I am tempted to be honest. The idea sounds promising and as time goes on it becomes less and less daunting but there's still a lot of self doubt and absolute terror stopping me from actually agreeing.

I suck at being an almost girlfriend, really I do.

Okay time to change tactics.

"I'm sure it'll be fun for you, me I'm not so sure about."

He sighs, knowing I'm trying to pick a fight. Dang him and his perceptiveness! Why can he not be as aloof as the rest of the male population? At times I often wonder how is it that he's so much more intuitive than I am. So much for the power of female intuition then, right?

"Tessie I wouldn't force you to do this unless I thought it would help us."

"We don't need help, we're fine just the way we are and definitely don't need to do that."

"Everyone does it. It's not a big deal and you don't need to psych yourself out over it. Like I said before, I'll make sure you're as comfortable as possible."

"But..."

This is the point where Alex pokes his head in between the two of us. I didn't even realize that he'd moved from his seat next to Megan on the lunch table. So when he says what he does next, I realize that Cole and I haven't really been paying attention to the world around us. Can you blame us though? We were discussing a very taxing topic.

"You guys do realize what your entire conversation sounded like right?"

Beth chokes on her soda and Megan tries hard to stifle her laughter. It's no use, by the time I've caught up everyone's given up on pretending that this isn't the single most, most humiliating moment in my life. My cheeks burn as I glare at Cole, who is enjoying this way too much.

He nudges my shoulder with his once everyone has calmed down. Leaning in to whisper in my air, I literally feel my embarrassment just melt away at the feel of his breath fanning my face.

"Just so you know I enjoyed that conversation very much."

Oh.

Now it's not embarrassment that causes me to turn red, nope it's something else entirely. He hasn't even kissed me for Christ's sake! As frustrating as that is, I'm even angrier that he's saying things like this and making me feel horny. The possibility of something like that happening between us seems ludicrous when we haven't even kissed each other yet. We've been 'together' for nearly three weeks now and I'm counting since the trip to the beach. What is he waiting for? Doesn't he want to kiss me as much as I want to kiss him?

Cole might be a perceptive boy but he's still a boy and they are the most confusing creatures on earth.

"So what's the verdict then? Are we going or not?" Alex asks and I let out a non committal response.

"We have to go!" Megan sides with her boyfriend, traitor. She notices me casting an extremely evil look in her direction and begins defending herself.