Den of Monsters

Farewell: Hina ayanokoji SS

from the moment of my birth i was despised by all, i brought nothing but misfortune to the man i call my father, i fufilled his requests but my existence wasn't seen with much pride nor joy by him, unlike that of my brother.

 my brother is a machine at best, he rarely talks with anyone and if he does his words are sharp as an edged blade, his strength is unrivalled and his mind unfathomable.

yet with all these traits he still possessed that human like curiousity to learn about that which was beyond our reach, that was the only thing we were somewhat alike in terms of our minds but unlike him, who was caged in a golden cage of success and reverence, i was nothing but another name on the slate.

Hina ayanokoji...sister to the masterpiece of the whiteroom and utter failure to atsuomi ayanokoji.

that is until i met her...a researcher in the whiteroom, she was unlike anyone else in the facility, she had a bright aura to her, her smile never faded even if she knew that certain aspects of her job led to the death of many innocents...she still smiled.

i thought she was a messed up person who enjoyed torturing us, a vile character like everyone in this hellish white cage but that was the utter opposite, she was simply a bird caged in with us like me and kiyotaka, my father caged her in and her husband at the earliest point of their youth and forced their hands onto this blood stained box.

"oh come on hina-chan! tell me which character you liked?! was it john? or was it mustapha perhaps??" she asked me as i sat beside her after finishing my training at the pool.

"uhm...john the savage was my favorite but please lower your voice miss ayaka..." i replied as i looked down to the ground.

her face immediatly brightened up with a smile as she put her hand on my head.

"john huh...is it because he reminds you of kiyotaka-kun?" she asked me once again this time with a smirk.

"no! i hate him and i do not care one bit about that egotistical idiot of a brother!" i screamed out at her gaining some attention from the other students and the other researcher standing by as the coach wrote down the timings of everyone else.

"ehehe you're so cute when you're shy! but you should shorten these bangs and show your face more hina-chan!"

my bangs?... what is this idiotic term...

"no i will not, give me your hairclips and that will do" i said as i pointed to her two red hairclips.

she looked at me with a look of shock before smiling and saying.

"hmmhmm take my hairclips you shall?, my hairclips i give to you, because cute you are!"

i sigh and take them from her and put them in my hair.

"there, you happy?" i grumbled as i stood before her.

"ehehe you look cuter now!"

i nodded at her words as silence befill us once again while kiyotaka seemingly aced the race between him and shiro...nothing unexpected i suppose.

hmm...she hasn't spoken up again, she is oddly quiet, is it because her husband is away on a trip?, kenjirou tateyama and my father supposedly went together on a trip to another country, though i am unsure of what their goal is there but i trust it's something malicious since that is all that my father does apparently, though kenjirou isn't much of a bad person to be honest...he is just tragic, baited in by evil and childish hopelessness, he tried to find something funny in his situation but only found submission to darkness...

sigh...i am tired of these stupid tests and training, i just want to see this outside world i have heard so much about, i want to live like a normal girl, be happy, be in love, be sad, be angry just anything but this...

"hey hina-chan...do you mind if you promise me something?" ayaka said as she continued staring at the pool.

"what is it?" i replied as i looked at her...her smile has faded and her eyes seem quite hollow...

"if one day we get seperated...please take care of everyone, if you can't then just...take care of yourself, smile and find happiness in this dark and cruel world we've all regrettably built for you, make sure you never let the people who are against you see you cry...be strong for yourself and for...kiyotaka-kun"

"eh?...what are you saying miss ayaka?..." i murmered as i looked at her in confusion.

she beamed at me once again with a bright smile, her normal attitude returned as she said.

"ehehe nothing!, just take care of my hairclips will you?"

she then quickly rushed to the other researchers and resumed her work like them.

at first i didn't understand what she meant but...i somehow do now, If we affirm the terribly irrational 'system' made by people who hated this lovely, painful world, there won't be any future.

even if i am caged up in here, in this room of utter nothingness, even if i am away from my dear brother, even if i am hopeless against that monster of a man...i will live happily just so that your work never goes to ruin...miss ayaka