Ensnared Against in a Blissful Hues

PROLOGUE

2023 is coming.

Sobrang saya ko, isang oras na lang bagong taon na. It's time to let go na naman, the burdens in my heart. Iwan ang dapat iwan. While I'm busy scrolling on my for your page on Tiktok, a video caught my attention.

It says "Went under the table at 11:59 pm on New Year's Eve as a joke. Ended up meeting my best friend."

Since I'm chismosa naman and I'm proud of it because the name of my Auntie is Marites, pinindot ko yung search bar na merong nakalagay na 'under the table new year'. Maraming videos pero pinindot ko muna yung first vid. The first video is a stitch of a woman, She explain na dapat daw gawin namin yung went under the table thingy. I scrolled down, hindi ko tinapos cuz at first I'm not interested.

The second video is "Last year I ate my 12 grapes under the table. Well it worked lol." Another nakaka inggit na naman, mag jowa ulit. Scroll down ulit ako.

The third video says "This is your reminder to go under the table at New Years Eve if you want to be in a committed relationship. IE if your single you will find a partner & if your in a relationship you will get engaged!"

Wala naman sigurong masama kung gagawin ko 'to mamaya. As far as I remember this is a tradition that are very common in the Hispanic Community, di ko lang alam kung pano at sino nagpasimuno ng lahat ng ito.

Tumayo ako sa pagkakaupo. I went to our fridge to get 12 grapes. Habang nag scro-scroll ako kanina, ang video na yun mayroong nakalagay na "With all these tiktok trends, looks like I'm sitting underneath a table, wearing red underwear, eating grapes, wearing red lipstick, putting coins in my bra, and eating dollar bills on New Year's Eve." Pumasok ako sa kwarto ko para mag bihis, nagsuot ako ng red underwear, naglagay din ako ng red lipstick sa labi ko at nilagyan ko din yung bra ko ng mga coins. Pahabol, nilagyan ko din ng 100 pesos yung bra ko, both side. Hindi ako tanga para kumain ng pera mamaya. Ew, that's gross kaya. Besides it's dirty.

Time check 11:48 pm.

Malapit na, nag handa naman ako. Habang bitbit ang ubas na kinuha ko sa ref kanina pumunta na ako sa ilalim ng dining table namin. Wala lang, gusto ko lang maging advance. Nag alarm ako ng 11:55 pm, makakalimutin kasi ako when it comes to time. To keep my self entertain, since I'm not active sa Instagram nag Facebook muna ako. Also, chatting my friends and relatives with "Happy New Year!" Then nag shared post din ako ng mga memes, like hello memes is life especially kung wala kang kalandian sa mga social medias, dating app or sites. I was surprised when my alarm suddenly rang. Damn.

11:56

Kinuha ko na yung bowl ko na mayroong grapes.

11:57

Kinakabahan ako. Pero bakit? Kakain lang naman ako.

11:58

Malapit na. Kaunting twerk na lang.

11:59

I quickly ate the grapes in the bowl. 12 grapes for 12 seconds. 12 grapes for the 12 Months. I'm not disappointed naman because I finished eating it on time, kinuha ko lang naman kasi yung maliliit na mga grapes para hindi ako mahirapan na kainin yun.

12:00

Lumabas na ako sa ilalim ng dining table namin. Some of my relatives especially my Auntie's giving me weird look. Hindi ko naman sila masisi. Ako lang kasi yung mag isang nandoon. Di tulad sa mga pinsan ko na busy doon sa labas. Just like I said 'wala naman sigurong masama kung gagawin ko 'to.' Hindi naman sa jowang jowa na 'ko pero parang ganon pa din. Naiingit? Parang oo na hindi. Baka kabag lang 'to.

Nagka jowa naman ako 7 months ago, pero it's not that serious. Hindi ako nag seryoso kasi hindi naman din ako sineryoso. Puta first boyfriend ko pa naman yun— wait... I don't consider him boyfriend pala, childhood friend to be exact. Since hindi ko naman sya ni-legal sa pamilya ko, patagong relasyon kasi. This time babawi ako. Gusto ko yung seryoso, who doesn't? Everyone wanted a serious relationship. But, in this generation ang hirap makahanap ng seryoso. When phora said "falling inlove nowadays is hard, because we're dealing with broken hearts we didn't break and insecurities we didnt create,we stuck in a generation of broken people who knows how to love but scared to."

Ang hirap. Lalo na't laro lang ang tingin ng iba sa isang relasyon.

I sighed. Kumuha ako ng wine saka ako lumabas ng bahay, mayroon pa ding fireworks. Napaisip ako sa ginawa ko kanina, I hope it works. Kasabay ng mga paputok ang paghinto ng diwa ko. Someone message me sa Instagram. Hi lang naman yun pero iba yung dating sa'kin.

With the name Von Khaiser Hidalgo.