Get back up!

1

It was nerve wrecking, the only thing on my mind was the hardship.
It was all new..everything was new..
Meeting new players, English is also hard honestly.

I walk into the dorms and greet our coach (Antonio Conte)
"Hello sir"
I notice him looking at me up and down as if I was some type of alien.
He then answers back:
"Next time, call me coach.Change so we can start training"

I quickly put my shirt on and wear my shorts.
He then drags me out and I meet the other players.
"Everyone, meet our new forward"
"Son or whatever your name is, meet your main acquaintances"

"Lloris"
"Davies"
"Dier"
"Kane, Harry Kane..Nice to meet you, Son"

Shivers ran down my spine.
His voice was so deep and..and soothing.
I bowed down to my main acquaintances still not understand the word..

I think they saw the confusion in my eyes, because right after this, Dier said:
"It means co-worker or friend"
Friend.Friend?Friend was a word I almost never used.
Especially when I'm the new one here..

"Hey?Son right?No pressure, you're new but hey, we're family!"
I look up at their bright smiles.
Kane's one was by far one of the prettiest of them all.
He was perfect yeah..

"Ok boys enough talk, run your morning laps then I want some push-ups and on the field"
He never told me what the morning laps were how am I supposed to know?

Suddenly, something hits my butt.
"Morning laps are 15 Son..now move before he catches you"
I start following the players and run 15 laps with them.
Who hit my behind?

We stopped and dropped to the ground.
That's when I saw Kane:
"We do 50 Son..keep the rhythm or he makes us restart"
I nod and do as Kane says.

"You're not that bad Son..for a start of course"
I didn't know what to respond.
"Ok boys, now I want to see you live action with the ball"

As soon as Mr.Conte gives me the cue, I run as if I had no tomorrow...I loved this..
I was so close to the goal and strike.
"GOAAAAAL!"
It went in..it went in!!

***

(2018)(Kane's pov)
I walk into the changing room seeing Somny sitting down, alone on a bench.
He looked tensed up.
I approach him and touch hold my grip on his shoulder.
"You good buddy?"
He looks up automatically and smiles.

He was Tottenham's sunshine, but his smile couldn't hide the fear in his eyes.
"Yea yea good"
His English accent made me fall deep for his cuteness.
"Hey, Sonny, don't be nervous, I know you'll do great!"

He looks at me with a happy smirk.
"Really?"
"Yes really"
"You're ready for the game?"
I hand him my palm.
"Ready"

I help him up still paying attention to his unsatisfied look.
He seems...confused too?
"Boys let's go!It's starting"
I turn my head to his direction and he smiles.

I swear I'd only need his smile to be happy.
Sonny made me feel..different, I wasn't the same with him.
Well I'm still Harry Kane, but he made me someone new.

***

I run, I just remember running as fast as I could as we had barely a minute left.
We needed this goal to move on.
I saw the opportunity and saw Sonny alone practically.

I signal him with my eyes and pass him the ball.
He then outruns Rochdale players.
If Sonny doesn't make it, we'd be 2-1..our scoring will go low if it happens.
The best is to equalize.

I see him getting blocked by 5 players, he was about to shoot.
It looked risky, it was far and there was a barricade in front of him.

He kicks the ball while I pray for the best.
"Oh and it's a Goal for SON!!Unbelievable!He just made it even for both teams!"
I opened my eyes.My Sonny did it.

I could see the joy in his eyes as he run over to me.
He then jumps into my arms while I hold him up in the sky.
"Did you get the assist?!"

I nod happily as he celebrates.
"I'm so glad we made it!"
"You did well Sonny!"
"We did it!"
Our captain Lloris was proud.

Honestly, we could've played better today.
But at least we're not losing points.
We all walk into the changing room and clean up quickly.
"We could've done better but on a réussi"said Lloris.
(On a réussi means we did it)

I change up and everyone leaves.
Only Sonny and I are left.
I really wanted to tell him today.
Should I?Will he feel the same?Wouldn't it be weird?

"Sonny?"
"Yes Harry?"
"Can we talk for a moment?"
"Yes yea of course, let me just wear my shirt"
He then walks cutely next to me and sits.

"Yes?"
"Promise me that we'll still be friends Heungmin"
"You suddenly used my name, that's scary"
"But just promise me that you won't change if anything happens"
"Ok ok"

"Heungmin, I love you"
"Ah, I know you love me, we're brothers"
I sigh, he didn't get it yet.
"Heungmin..I love you more than friends, more than brothers..I want you to be my boyfriend"

I could see how he froze right on spot.
He looked like he was thinking deeply about what I said.
"Sonny I-"
He just said:
"I have to think Harry, I don't know"

He then left, without me.
We'd normally be eating together right now and fooling around.
I walk out behind him and see him entering our van.
I sit next to him and try to communicate.

He looked..blank.
Did I scare him?I destroyed our relationship didn't I?
"You played really well today Sonny, especially your goal"
He didn't respond.

He was looking at his shoes.
I kept trying and trying but he just never looked or talked to me.
I started getting desperate.

We all went to a restaurant to enjoy some time after some matches.
"Guys, I don't feel well today, is it okay if I skip this lunch?I will come next time sorry"
"It's okay Sonny, rest well"

He left.
That's how he leaves?
I'm dumbfounded.
"Kane, you're paying?"
"As if I never do"
"You know what happened to Sonny?You guys were together"

"I don't know man, maybe because he ran the most"
"He does look exhausted though, check on him later Kane"
"I will, I will"
I actually didn't know if I could even face him anymore.

***

What was he doing?He could've been home by now.
His house isn't even far from the new training camp.
"Ok Kane likes me?Kane likes me?.."
He was kicking the ball on the wall nonstop.

"What do I tell him?"
I pay attention to the last part.
"um...how do we express our love towards someone too?"
"Harry I love you very very very very much too"
"Ani, ani..that's too too..ugh"

He throws himself to the ground and stays there for long minutes.
He then comes back in and meets me at the entrance.
"Sonny.."
"You heard?Sorry..I just didn't know what to say?"
He was too cute, I couldn't be mad..

"So..um are we together?"
"Yes, um..Harry?"
"Yes Sonny?"
"I love you"

He then runs away adorably.
How am I supposed to live with this human?!